Toy - たかやん Übersetzung ins Englische

Toy

今は出したい自分も隠そう表情も
気持ちがバレないように
棘だらけの掌を無理矢理掴んでる
震える 抱かれてるのに 偏る愛 It's on me
Kill 自我 見ない 君以外

振り返る 今まで彼は笑った？ 一途に恋した中で
一度もないでしょ？そのまま振り向かないよ それが運命
朝が来れば互い他人で 今夜も「好き」と「無気力」と共に
Good night 使い捨ての玩具

行為の時だけ楽しそうにする
「愛されたい」 「遊ばれたい」 二人の自分
変にあなたに絡む異性に
一瞬で嫉妬してしまう自分にも
嫌悪感抱き 馬鹿馬鹿しい
自分だけ勝手に折れて

一方的に愛すのは ただの自己満足だ
頑張り過ぎた所で あなたには伝わらない
求められると幸せを感じてる
何故か癖になってる 魅力だけ輝く
私が浮気してしまえば
好きだって言ってくれるかな？
結局は居なくても あなたの反応は同じでしょ？

飽き飽きしてる抜け出すための努力
追いかける 在りもしない果ての妄想
さっさと幸せになりたい というか永遠に何も考えたくない
幸せにしたいしされたい 幸せが何か分からない
少し汚くても良いから 少し常識外れで良いから
自分で自分を助けるしかないんだ
早くそのうち 好きな人と笑いながら手を繋げる日を

今は出したい自分も隠そう表情も
気持ちがバレないように
棘だらけの掌を無理矢理掴んでる
震える 抱かれてるのに 偏る愛 It's on me
Kill 自我 見ない 君以外

振り返る 今まで彼は笑った？ 一途に恋した中で
一度もないでしょ？そのまま振り向かないよ それが運命
朝が来れば互い他人で 今夜も好きと無気力と共に
Good night 使い捨ての玩具

Toy

I want to hide how I feel and my expression,
so you don't notice my feelings.
I'm forcing myself to hold your prickly hands.
I'm trembling, I'm being held, but the love is biased. It's on me.
Kill my ego. I see no one but you.

I look back. Has he ever smiled? In my one-sided love,
not once, right? I won't turn around anymore. That's fate.
When morning comes, we'll be strangers again. Tonight, too, I'll sleep with "like" and "apathy".
Good night, disposable toy.

You only look happy when we're intimate.
There are two of me, "I want to be loved" and "I want to be played with".
When another woman approaches you, in a playful way,
I get jealous right away. I feel disgusted with myself.
What a fool I am.
I'm the only one who's breaking down.

Loving someone one-sidedly is just self-satisfaction.
No matter how hard I try, you won't notice.
I feel happy when you need me.
Somehow it's become a habit. Your charm is all that shines.
If I cheated on you,
would you tell me you love me?
In the end, even if I wasn't around, you'd react the same, right?

I'm tired of trying to escape.
Chasing delusions of a future that doesn't exist.
I want to be happy soon, or rather, I don't want to think about anything forever.
I want to make you happy and be happy, but I don't know what happiness is.
Even if it's a little dirty, even if it's a little out of the ordinary,
I have to help myself.
May the day come soon when I can laugh and hold hands with someone I love.

I want to hide how I feel and my expression,
so you don't notice my feelings.
I'm forcing myself to hold your prickly hands.
I'm trembling, I'm being held, but the love is biased. It's on me.
Kill my ego. I see no one but you.

I look back. Has he ever smiled? In my one-sided love,
not once, right? I won't turn around anymore. That's fate.
When morning comes, we'll be strangers again. Tonight, too, I'll sleep with "like" and "apathy".
Good night, disposable toy.