Lyrics and translation Julio Sosa - Total Pa' Que Sirvo

Total Pa' Que Sirvo

No sé, pero a veces quisiera encontrarlo
Así frente a frente, pa′ver si es capaz
De mirarme fijo al interpelarlo
Ya que es de coraje como lo pintás.
¿O creés que he nacido pa'vivir temblando?
Soy mucho más hombre de lo que sabés.
Desde hoy, día y noche lo vi′andar buscando
Y donde se cuadre ya me vas a ver.

Total, ¡pa'qué sirvo!
Sin ella mi vida,
No es vida ni es nada.
No sé más qué soy.
Total, ¡pa'qué sirvo!
Si mi alma está herida,
Si no hay madrugada
Que me halle dormido,
Me encuentro perdido.
¡No ves cómo estoy!

Pensé muchas noches en no hacerle caso,
Dejarlo tranquilo, perdonar su acción,
Y no hallo remedio; mis horas las paso
Cerrando los puños con esta obsesión.
Habló mi experiencia. Por eso hasta ahora,
Luché pa′ser fuerte, no lo quise ver.
Y todo es inútil, mis ojos la lloran
Tendré que perderme por esa mujer.

Total, Pa' Que Sirvo

I don't know, but sometimes I'd like to find him
Face to face, to see if he's capable
Of looking me in the eye when I challenge him
Since he's as brave as you make him out to be.
Or do you think I was born to live in fear?
I'm much more of a man than you know.
From today, I'll be looking for him day and night
And where he shows up, you'll see me too.

What's the point, anyway!
Without her in my life,
It's not life, it's nothing.
I don't know who I am anymore.
What's the point, anyway!
If my soul is wounded,
If there's no dawn
That finds me asleep,
I'm lost.
Can't you see how I am!

I thought many nights about ignoring him,
Leaving him alone, forgiving his actions,
But I can't find a solution; I spend my hours
Clenching my fists with this obsession.
Experience has spoken to me. That's why until now,
I've fought to be strong, I didn't want to see it.
But it's all useless, my eyes cry for her
I'll have to lose myself to forget her.