Lyrics castle oblivion - Lando $enju

Yeah, all I want is more bucks
Tell me what you think of me, I couldn't give more fucks
Baby, can't you see that being sober is torture?
Money gettin longer but my time is getting shorter, yeah

I'm a lover, I'm a loser, I guess
And all this pain gon make me stronger in the future, I guess
I'm dodging rumors, drug abuser cuz I'm super depressed
And I want you but I won't fool myself, I knew you'd be pressed

Cuz I'm faded
I get high outta my mind so everything is painless
Everything I want in life is gonna come with patience
I don't feel like leaving bed today, I'm too faded, faded

I don't wanna die, but I will
Never asked to be here, but I'm still
O-o-overload, lately I been comatose
My girl say to slow it down before I fucking

So numb, nigga, novocaine
If Imma die, Imma go in flames
So stuck, nigga, gold chains
In the moment I feel like I'm floating

My emotions got me broken
And the drugs help me when I'm coping
So frozen, but I'm golden
Aye, watch how I switch this shit up

Never did I give a fuck what they say
Like, you never even fucked with niggas anyway
Used to get dubbed by that bitch, heh
Now I get top from her every day
Tote me a tec and I tote me a switch, heh
I can rain hell on you any day
Get away, baby, just get away
Get away, baby, just get away

All I know is pouring up more mud, on the hunt for more drugs
Leaning back, so stuck, steady smoking, Sosa
I don't need no scope just to chop em down like cold cuts
Can't eat, I got no bud, can't sleep either, so tuff

Get rich, go off the grid, yeah that's my main goal
Shit been rocky, so I really need the pesos
Innocence, my inner kid dipped, where did they go?
God, I wonder if I'm... even the same soul

And, no, I don't wanna breathe, no
No, I don't wanna weep, no
Late nights I see ghosts

Hold up, aye
Bitch I'm jaded, every day I wake up to the same shit
When I blow, I'm finna ghost, can't pinpoint my location
I want the attention, but I can't get what I'm craving
High as fuck, coolin in my room yea that's my haven

So I'm faded
I get high outta my mind so everything is painless
Everything I want in life is gonna come with patience
I don't feel like leaving bed today, I'm too faded, faded

(Please leave your name and phone number after the beep
(We will return your call)
Aw, shit
(Now stop calling me)

I had a plan, but you know, shit happens
And sometimes, the things that you desire are disaster
I wear my pride around my shoulders like a jacket
I'm pompous, I'm blasting, it's solely reaction
You better find your way back fore I'm lying in a casket
Fuck that, I'm everything but average, you bastard
You ever have a dream that you watch just shatter?
And I been feeling like none of this bullshit even matter
I'm sick of all these voices, shut the fuck with all that chatter
Before I load the chop and watch your brains fuckin splatter
I act perfect but I'm just that, a fucking actor
I act perfect but I'm just that, a fucking actor

Am I real? I mean, like, does any of this shit even matter?
I kicked the bitch outta my life and now I'm gladder
Oh yeah, I'm gladder
Except I'm sadder

Can you feel it in the air, girl, are we tight or would you rather?
Would you rather take my heart and try to shatter?
And let it splatter?
It doesn't matter