Lyrics and translation Loptimist - 널 사랑한 내가 밉다 (feat. 샛별)

널 사랑한 내가 밉다 (feat. 샛별)

널 사랑한 내가 미치도록 싫은 밤
헤어진 오늘 소주 먹다 괜히 필름만
끊겼어 완전히 취해 길에서 추태
부리며 택시탄 놈이 내가 될 줄 몰랐는데
친구들이 이별에 힘들어 할때마다
야 걱정마라 세상에 여자는 많아 위로했지
막상 겪으니 그 기분은 정반대
역시 중이 제 머리는 못깍네
바탕화면에 있는 니 사진이 담긴 폴더
잠에서 깨자마자 습관적으로 눌러
아직도 해결안된 이 복잡한 마음
넌 여전히 나에겐 가장 아름다워
이게 도대체 미련인지 아니면
혼자있는것에 대한 어색함의 비명?
날 걷어찬 네 사진에 눈을 못때네
1년 동안 함께 쌓인 빌어먹을 정때메

널 사랑했던 내가 너무 미워져
다 소용없지만
날 밀어냈던 밤조차 넌 지워가고 있을까

우리의 만남은 너무나 특별해
우리처럼 사귄 커플은 없을껄?
이라며 우린 자주 사귀기전에
있었던 일을 웃으며 얘기하곤 했었네
너무 다른 그 시작과 끝
천천히 공을 들여서 탑을 쌓듯
최선을 다해 섭섭할까 혹시나
해서 말 한마디에 늘 조심한
난 그래 맞아 니 말대로 딱 A형
이건 누가 정한거지 진짜 목이 매여
그저 사랑한 만큼 구속한게 죄?
첨엔 신경 써주는 거 같아 좋데매?
점점 변해가는 너와 자주 싸웠지
어느새 너의 주변남자는 Privacy
누구랑 있어? 맨날 빌어먹을 아는 오빠
전화를 끓으면 난 또 밤새 잠을 못자

널 가진 날 들었던 첫마디
난 아직도 기억해
떠나지 않는다던 그 말이
지금은 더 미워

이젠 너의 술자리에서 내 이름은
집착했던 전 남친 내 말 맞지?
널 거들어 안주삼아 나를 비웃을
너의 친구들의 모습이 딱 떠올랐지
그리고 얼마 안가 새 남자를 만나
나랑 싸웠던 일만 얘기할거 알아
내가 사준 곰 인형은 이미 쓰레기통에
이제 너를 향한 내 마음만 일방통행

I Hate Myself for Loving You (feat. Saetbyeol)

On nights when I miss you so much I could go mad
We broke up today and I'm wasting film as I drink soju
I'm completely drunk, and on the street I'm making a scene
I never thought the guy who took a taxi would be me
Whenever my friends went through a breakup
I would comfort them saying, "Don't worry, there are plenty of fish in the sea."
But now that I'm going through it, I feel the complete opposite
I guess a barber can't cut his own hair
The folder with your pictures on my desktop
Out of habit, I click on it as soon as I wake up
My complex feelings are still unsolved
You're still the most beautiful girl in my eyes
Is this just wishful thinking or
A cry for help because I'm not used to being alone?
I can't bear to look at the picture of you that dumped me
A whole year's worth of memories we built together

I hate myself so much for loving you
It's all pointless
Even the night you pushed me away, are you forgetting about it?

Our encounter was so special
Could there be another couple like us?
We would often talk about the things that happened
Before we started dating
The beginning and end were so different
Like building a tower by slowly stacking blocks
I did my best and was always careful with my words
So that I wouldn't regret anything
Yes, that's right, I'm a Type A personality, just like you said
Who made this rule? I'm really suffocating
Is it a sin to be possessive because I love you?
At first, I thought you liked it when I paid attention to you
But you started changing, and we fought often
Suddenly, the other men around you became your "privacy"
Who are you with? That damn oppa you're always talking about
When I call you so much, I can't sleep all night

The first words you said to me when you accepted me
I still remember them
You said you wouldn't leave
Now I hate it even more

Now, my name is just
Your obsessive ex-boyfriend, right?
You'll ridicule me using me as a drinking story
I can picture your friends laughing at me
And soon enough, you'll meet a new guy
And you'll tell him all about the fights we had
The teddy bear I gave you is probably in the trash now
My feelings for you are now one-sided