Lyrics and translation Primary - Poison (feat. E SENS)

Poison (feat. E SENS)

시간 지나 먼지 덮인 많은 기억
시간 지나면서 내 몸에 쌓인 독
자유롭고 싶은 게 전보다 훨씬 더 심해진 요즘
난 정확히 반쯤 죽어있어
눈에 보이는 건 아니지만 난 믿은 것
그게 날 이끌던 걸 느낀 적 있지 분명
그 시작을 기억해
나를 썩히던 모든 걸 비워내
붙잡아야지 잃어가던 것

지금까지의 긴 여행 꽉 쥔 주먹에
신념이 가진 것의 전부라 말한 시절엔
겁먹고 낡아버린 모두를 비웃었지
반대로 그들은 날 겁 줬지 나 역시 나중엔
그들같이 변할 거라고 어쩔 수 없이
그러니 똑바로 쳐다보라던 현실
그는 뛰고 싶어도 앉은 자리가 더 편하대
매번 그렇게 나와 너한테 거짓말을 해

그 담배같은 위안 땜에 좀먹은 정신
어른이 돼야 된다는 말 뒤에 숨겨진 건
최면일뿐 절대 현명해 지고 있는게 아냐
안주하는 것뿐 줄에 묶여있는 개마냥
배워가던게 그런 것들뿐이라서
용기내는 것만큼 두려운 게 남들 눈이라서
그 꼴들이 지겨워서 그냥 꺼지라 했지
내 믿음이 이끄는 곳 그 곳이 바로 내 집이며

내가 완성되는 곳 기회란 것도 온다면
옆으로 치워놓은 꿈 때문에 텅 빈 껍데기 뿐인
너보단 나에게 마음껏 비웃어도 돼
날 걱정하는듯 말하며 네 실패를 숨겨도 돼
다치기 싫은 마음뿐인 넌 가만히만 있어
그리고 그걸 상식이라 말하지
비겁함이 약이 되는 세상이지만
난 너 대신 흉터를 가진 모두에게
존경을 이겨낸 이에게 축복을

깊은 구멍에 빠진 적 있지
가족과 친구에겐 문제없이 사는 척
뒤섞이던 자기 혐오와 오만
거울에서조차 날 쳐다보는 눈이 싫었어 열정의 고갈
어떤 누구보다 내가 싫어하던 그 짓들
그게 내 일이 된 후엔 죽어가는 느낌뿐
다른 건 제대로 느끼지 못해 뒤틀려버린
내 모습 봤지만 난 나를 죽이지 못해

그저 어딘가 먼 데로
가진 걸 다 갖다 버린대도
아깝지 않을 것 같던 그 때는
위로가 될만한 일들을
미친놈같이 뒤지고 지치며
평화는 나와 관계없는 일이었고
불안함 감추기 위해 목소리 높이며
자존심에 대한 얘기를 화내며
지껄이고 헤매었네 어지럽게
누가 내 옆에 있는지도 모르던 때

그 때도 난 신을 믿지 않았지만
망가진 날 믿을 수도 없어
한참을 갈피 못 잡았지
내 의식에 스며든 질기고 지독한 감기
몇 시간을 자든지 개운치 못한 아침
조바심과 압박감이 찌그러트려 놓은 젊음
거품 덫들 기회 대신 오는 유혹들
그 모든 것의 정면에서 다시 처음부터
붙잡아야지 잃어가던 것

급히 따라가다보면
어떤게 나인지 잊어가 점점
급히 따라가다보면
어떤게 나인지 잊어가 점점
멈춰야겠으면 지금 멈춰
우린 중요한 것들을 너무 많이 놓쳐
급히 따라가다보면
어떤게 나인지 잊어가 점점

Poison (feat. E SENS)

The time passed and its dust covered many of my memories
The time passed and its poison accumulated in my body
My desire to be free has grown stronger than ever, and these days
I'm exactly half dead
You can't see it in my eyes, but what I believed,
I certainly felt that it was leading me
I remember its beginning
Purge me of everything that has been rotting me
I must hold on to what I have been losing

My clenched fist holds the long journey I have come this far,
the convictions I had when I said that they were all my beliefs,
I used to laugh at everyone who was scared and outdated,
whereas they scared me in turn, and eventually, I,
like them, would inevitably change
So I was told to look straight ahead at reality
He said that he wanted to run, but it's more comfortable to stay seated.
That's always how he lied to you and me

My mind is damaged because of the comfort that was like a cigarette
What is hidden behind the words telling me to become an adult
is nothing but hypnosis, and it definitely doesn't make me wise;
it just makes me a dog tied to a leash
because that is all I've been learning
because I'm too afraid of people's eyes to be courageous
I got tired of those looks and just told them to go to hell
My home is where my faith leads me, and there I am complete,

where I am perfected; if opportunity comes,
I'm just an empty shell because of the dream I've put aside
You can laugh at me as much as you want, but it's more important for me than you.
You can hide your failures while pretending to be concerned about me.
You are only capable of being afraid of getting hurt, so just stay still,
and then call it common sense.
Although cowardice is a medicine in this world,
instead of you, to everybody bearing scars
I give my blessings to those who have wrestled with respect

I've been in a deep pit,
pretending to be fine in front of my family and friends,
my self-loathing and arrogance intertwined.
Even in the mirror, I hated the eyes looking at me; passion is exhausted.
The things that I hated more than anyone else
felt like death after they became my job.
I can't feel anything else properly; my distorted
form I saw, but I couldn't kill myself.

Just somewhere far away,
even though I threw away everything I had,
I don't think I'd regret it; at that time,
I looked madly for things that could comfort me
and grew tired; peace
was irrelevant to me, and
to hide my anxiety, I raised my voice
and angrily talked about pride,
rambling in confusion.
I didn't even know who was next to me then.

Even then, I didn't believe in God,
but I couldn't even trust myself when I was broken.
I couldn't find my way for a long time,
a tenacious and terrible cold that permeated my consciousness.
No matter how many hours I slept, I couldn't wake up refreshed.
Restlessness and stress marred my youth.
Opportunities bubble traps, temptations instead of opportunities.
From the front of all that, from the beginning again,
I must hold on to what I have been losing

If I follow in a hurry,
I gradually forget what I am.
If I follow in a hurry,
I gradually forget what I am.
If you have to stop, stop now.
We are missing too much of what is important.
If I follow in a hurry,
I gradually forget what I am.