Lyrics and translation Shoxrux - Ko'ngil

Ko'ngil

Charchadim maqsadsiz yashash tarzidan
Aqlim uzra sarqadlarimni zabt etilganidan
Man hudi qulman nafsimga arzon sotilgan
Hudi mahfuzman o'limga hukum qilingan
To'g'ri deb bilib havoi safoni
Unutdim qalbim qo'rg'onini
Har bir harakatim yarati o'zimga qarshi bo'lgan qurolni
Unutdim yana nafs degan dushmaning hilasini
Aqlimni asir oldi har turga solib holatimni
Sog'inmadim oddiyona beg'ubor hayotimni
Sukut saqlamoq yo yana savollar bilan tutilmoq
Hammasi chalkashib ketdi bekorga
G'animatimni topshirdim nafs degan dushmani hilasiga
O'zim esa shunchaki qulman unga
Nuqta qo'ygim kelardi hammasiga

Ammo...
Ko'ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Hatolardan bo'lak nelar qoldi manda...
Ko'ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Singan haqiqatdan bo'lak nelar qoldi ko'nglimda

Negadur dilimni og'ritadigan so'zlarni
Ko'pligidan chalkashdim
Har bir so'zlar tikan kabi botadi qalbimga, yuragimga
Gar yetmay qolsachi umrim
Balki ertaga ohirgi bekat ulgurishim kerak
Har hil holatdagi yaxshi amallarga
Gar nazar tashlasam razolatu hiyonatdan
Boshqa hech narsa ko'rinmas ortimda
Tobora istemoli zinoyu safodan
Ularni oldida o'zim bosh egdim
Lek yurak egmadi u yana mag'rur edi
U bir insoni deb urar edi
Man esa ranjitdim kimlarni deb uni
Man bosh egmadim yurak esa egdi
Man mag'rur edim yuragim esa sevardi

Yuragi sevardi...
Ko'ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Hatolardan bo'lak nelar qoldi manda...
Ko'ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Singan haqiqatdan bo'lak nelar qoldi ko'nglimda

San ayt nega ketding
San ayt mani kimlarga alishding
San ayt yana nelarni istardi bu ko'ngling
San ayt nega endi qayting
Ayblama san mani
Hamma ayb jilovi yo'q nafsingda
Hamma ayb o'zingda
Man esa kutardim
Sani ko'z yoshlar bilan ko'zlarimda
Bedor tunlarimda
Do'st bilib sabrni tunlarim uzun kunlarimdan
San esa hatlab o'tding beayib tuyg'ularim ustidan
Nafsingni deb yuz o'girding jonim mandan
Orada sevgi uvol ovora
Ko'nglim esa parcha bo'lib ming bora
Barglar to'kilib kelsa kuz eslagin mani
Yog'ib oppoq qor kelsa qish eslagin mani

Heart

I'm tired of this aimless way of life,
My mind conquered by its own delusions.
I'm like a slave, cheaply sold to my own desires,
Like a prisoner sentenced to death.
Believing the air of lust to be right,
I forgot the fortress of my heart.
Every action I took created a weapon against myself,
I forgot again the tricks of the enemy called desire.
My mind was captured, twisting my state into various forms,
I didn't miss my simple, innocent life.
To remain silent or be caught with questions again,
Everything became entangled for nothing.
I surrendered my spoils to the tricks of the enemy called desire,
And I myself am just a slave to it.
I wanted to put an end to everything,

But...
My heart is still with you, with me, with you again.
What's left with me besides mistakes...
My heart is still with you, with me, with you again.
What's left in my heart besides broken truth.

Somehow, the words that hurt my heart,
I'm confused by their abundance.
Each word stings like a thorn in my heart and soul.
If my life runs out,
Maybe tomorrow I need to reach the final stop.
To good deeds in every situation,
If I look back, from betrayal and hypocrisy,
Nothing else is visible behind me.
Increasingly consumed by sin and temptation,
I bowed my head before them.
But my heart did not bow, it was still proud.
It beat for one person,
And I hurt who knows who for her.
I didn't bow my head, but my heart did.
I was proud, but my heart loved.

My heart loved...
My heart is still with you, with me, with you again.
What's left with me besides mistakes...
My heart is still with you, with me, with you again.
What's left in my heart besides broken truth.

Tell me why you left,
Tell me who you traded me for,
Tell me what else your heart desired,
Tell me why you're coming back now.
Don't blame me,
All the blame lies with your unrestrained desire,
All the blame is on you.
And I waited,
With tears in my eyes for you,
In my sleepless nights,
Considering patience as a friend during my long nights and days.
And you stepped over my innocent feelings,
You turned your face away from me because of your desire.
Love is lost and restless in between,
My heart is shattered a thousand times.
When leaves fall in autumn, remember me,
When white snow falls in winter, remember me.