Lyrics and translation THE SxPLAY - スウィートアウトサイダー

スウィートアウトサイダー

足を組んでボオっとして
べつに平気ですって顔で
飲みたくもないドリンクを
片手に味わう間もなく
一気に流し込んで
寂しさも流し込んで
ほら、いつもどおりでしょ? って言い間貸せるの
こんなはずじゃない! ってスイッチを
入れたように輪に入ったなら
余計に空回って
妙なテンションになる
オチでしょ?
自分の居場所を探しながら
笑顔作れるほどに器用じゃない
Ah、こうやって言い訳ばっか
役に立たないイメージなら、浮かぶのに
すウィットアウトサイダー
なぜか胸が痛いな
「私らしさ」ってなんだっけ?
いつからこんなんだっけ?
わたしアウトサイダー?
君と同じようにさ
ただみんなと同じように
笑っていたいだけ

思えばこれまでだって何回も
馴染めない自分繰り返して
その度 " 明日は変わるんだ " って
眠りにつくんだ
あれこれ無駄に想像して
いちいち一人不安巡らせて
昨日とまるで違うわたし、願うように
Ah、それなのに、いざとなれば
眺めるしかできない
このくだり何度見続ければいい
すウィットアウサイダー
やけに胸が痛いな
普通にしょうとしたって
ぎこちなさばっか目立って
わたしアウトサイダー
君と同じようにさ
興味ないフリしたいんじゃなくて

笑っていたいだけ

Here I go again、距離なんか則っちゃって
嘘のーつだってつけたらいいのに
救いようもないくらいの、不器用さだって
私なりにひねり出せる、言葉があるはずだよ
スウィートアウトサイダー
やけに胸が痛いな
「私らしさ」ってなんだっけ?
いつからこんなんだっけ?
アウサイダー
それでも絞り出した
言葉のーつだって、伝わって欲しくて
スウィートアウサイダー
まだ胸は痛いや
普通にしようとしたって
ぎこちなさばっか目立って
アウトサイダー
それだって " 私らしいかも" って
少しだけ前を向いて
思い出したように笑って
スウィーとアウサイダー

Sweet Outsider

Brings her legs about in meditation.
The face which shows relaxedness
Drinks the concoction that is not to her taste
In one gulp while savoring its taste.
Pours it all down in one go
Along with it, the loneliness too
Lo there, see, it's the usual, she says, while lending the words.
Switched on like that isn't supposed to happen, right!?
If you had joined the circle
You would most certainly have misfired again,
And again you would have ended up in a strange mood.
What am I supposed to say?
In the search of a place called 'mine',
I am not skilled to the point where I can craft a smile on my face.
Ah, all I do is make excuses
When I need to be useful, my mind is blank.
Sweet Outsider
For some reason, there is a pain in his chest.
What the hell was being myself?
Since when did I become like this?
Am I an outsider?
Just like you,
All I wanted was to laugh with others.
Just that.

Come to think of it, even before,
Repeating the self that couldn't fit in,
Every time, I said, "Tomorrow, I will change,"
And went to sleep.
Wasted my time imagining things
Worrying about it all alone
And wished to be a completely different person the next day,
Ah, but when the day actually came,
I could only watch.
How many times do I have to keep watching?
Sweet Outsider
There was a strange pain in his chest.
I tried to act normal
But nothing but awkwardness stood out.
I am an outsider,
Just like you,
I don't want to pretend to be disinterested.

All I wanted was to laugh.

Here I go again, creating distance
If only I could tell a lie,
The clumsiness that is beyond saving,
I should be able to find my own words.
Sweet Outsider
There was a strange pain in his chest.
What the hell was being myself?
Since when did I become like this?
Outsider
Nevertheless, I squeezed out the words,
Every one of them, so that they can reach you.
Sweet Outsider
There was still pain in his chest.
Even if I tried to act normal
Nothing but awkwardness stood out.
Outsider
But that too, "is also like me".
Just a little, facing forward,
Smiling as if I had just remembered,
Swee-eet Outsider.