Lyrics and translation aiko - Shower to Konsento

Shower to Konsento

咳をしたら過去が煙る 消えてはまた求めてる
切り替え可能のコンセントが欲しい
毎回繰り返していたら そんな感情は腐っていくと
想い立ち込めた頃にやっと気づいた

熱があるから言えるかもしれない 物分かり良いふりできるかも
鞄の中 からまった曇り空
忘れられたいつかのガム溶かしてまた君を笑わせたい

息を止めて離れたって何度も溢れてシャツが汚れる
君の気持ちが分からないのは僕のせいだし君のせいだよ
シャワーを浴びる音が聞こえる もうじき君は仕事に出かける
そのまま帰って来なくなる事も何となく分かってるよ

窓開けたら冷たい空気
紛らわしい曖昧な空気
混ざっても混ざり合わないこの部屋

仕方ないじゃなくて情けないよ こんな言い訳はしたくないんだ
いつもを忘れ程遠い空を使う
聞こえないふりとかしないで目を見てまた君を怒らせたい

「今更なにを言ってるの」って知らない顔で笑ってる君に
最後なんだな 複雑だよな ふと遠くで見てる僕が思う
「満月に願い事するって本気であたしに向かって聞くの？」
美しく手の届かぬものにもう戻れない願い事をするな

何も知らなかった 少し解ってたよ

大好きだってきっとうんともっと言えば良かった

息を止めて離れたって何度も溢れてシャツが汚れる
君の気持ちが分からないのは僕のせいだし君のせいだよ
シャワーを浴びる音が聞こえる もうじき君は仕事に出かける
そのまま帰って来なくなる事も何となく分かってる
そのまま帰って来なくなる事も何となく分かってるよ

Shower and Outlet

When I cough, the past turns to smoke, vanishing then beckoning me back.
I wish I had an outlet I could just switch off.
If I keep repeating this, these feelings will rot away,
a realization that finally hits me when my thoughts become overwhelming.

Maybe because I have a fever, I can say it, maybe I can pretend to be understanding.
Inside my bag, a tangled cloudy sky.
Melting that piece of gum I forgot about from who knows when, I want to make you laugh again.

Even if I hold my breath and leave, it overflows again and again, staining my shirt.
Not understanding your feelings is my fault, and it's your fault too.
I hear the sound of the shower, you'll be leaving for work soon.
I have a feeling you won't be coming back.

When I open the window, cold air.
Confusing, ambiguous air.
Mixing yet not blending in this room.

It's not just unavoidable, it's pathetic. I don't want to make these kinds of excuses.
I use a distant sky, far from our usual.
Don't pretend you can't hear me, look me in the eyes, I want to make you angry again.

To you, laughing with a face I don't know, saying "What are you talking about now?"
This is the end, isn't it? It's complicated, I think, watching from afar.
"Do you seriously expect me to believe you're making a wish on the full moon?"
Don't make wishes for something beautiful and unattainable, something we can no longer return to.

I didn't know anything, or maybe I knew a little.

I should have said I loved you, surely, yes, and even more.

Even if I hold my breath and leave, it overflows again and again, staining my shirt.
Not understanding your feelings is my fault, and it's your fault too.
I hear the sound of the shower, you'll be leaving for work soon.
I have a feeling you won't be coming back.
I have a feeling you won't be coming back.