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ビードロの夜

じゃあ 無言のままでもいい このまま途絶えないならいい
たまに聞こえてくるのなら 息づかいや大きな溜息でもいい
そっちで鳴ってる救急車
打ち上げ花火の影 ビードロ色の涙は受話器じゃ気付かれなくていい
ただ「あなたが元気で幸せでいればそれでいいの」と並べた言葉は嘘
逢えないのも触れないのもあたしがいないのも全部嫌
本当は結局はそんな場面想像するだけでも嫌
今この部屋にあるのは隙間なく埋め尽くされた「好き」
時計の針はそっと回って気が付けば知らず空は明るい
考えすぎたあなたの事
最高と最悪を一度に思い描きどうにかなってしまいそうよ
初めて逢った冬 香り放つ冷たい冬 忘れられない目の奥
逢いたいから溺れたいからあなたにふれて確かめたい
あたしの胸の中が擦り切れる音が本当に聞こえるのか
いつもいつも決まって顔を上げる時は あなたがあたしを追い越した後
やっと真っ直ぐ見つめられるけど
唇噛んだ姿あなたは知らない
逢えないのも触れないのもあたしがいないのも全部嫌
本当は結局はそんな場面想像するだけでも嫌

Tears of Glass Night

Then, it's fine even if we're silent and don't break up
If I can occasionally hear your breathing or big sigh, that's fine too
The ambulance is wailing over there
Teardrops colored like glass, under the shadow of fireworks are unnoticed through the receiver; that's fine.
The words I lined up -- "If you are well and happy, that's good enough for me" -- were a lie.
I hate that I can't meet you, can't touch you, that I'm not there
The truth is, it makes me sick just to imagine such a scene.
All there is in this room now is my love that fills every crevice.
The hands of the clock gently move around, and before I know it, the sky is bright.
I thought too much about you
I thought of the best and worst at the same time and felt like I was going to lose my mind.
The first time we met in winter, the fragrant, cold winter, the depths of your eyes I can't forget
I want to see you, I want to drown in you, I want to touch you and make sure.
Can you really hear the sound of my heart scraping and wearing away?
Every time, without fail, when I look up, you've already passed me by.
I can finally look you straight in the eye,
but you don't know about my bitten lip.
I hate that I can't meet you, can't touch you, that I'm not there
The truth is, it makes me sick just to imagine such a scene.