Lyrics Poems For Myself (feat. Stephanie Cortez) - shattered

I've been trying to write you
A series of poems, but nothing's changing
I'll bottle my problems 'til I can't contain them
They'll stay right inside of my own head

And I just wanna know what it means
To be myself again
I've lost interest in the things
That would help me just forget

And I don't like the way I talk, I hate what's said
I'd rather just shut up and eat this lead
I can't deal with dread, I can't deal with stress
I lie every single night awake in bed

My mind is sinking into sorrow
I can't see tomorrow
Yesterday was hollow
Eyes are feeling shallow

I can't give a reason
Why I should be breathing
Wish for different seasons
So I can feel decent

Some nights, I lie in bed
Trying to make sense of what I intend to be
My mom says, "Get a job"
But I can't hang on to a life that isn't for me

But you and I see eye to eye
As they keep moving forward
We get along, sing the same song
Someday, we'll make it out there