Lyrics and translation 林欣彤 - 不如憎你

不如憎你

毒藥 越吃越著迷 不捨得放低
被你 肆虐到死去活來 亦廝守到底
突然毒發 嘔心瀝血 興奮到自毀
怪也只怪 任自尊給你貶低

讓步 便養大壞人 斗膽的說謊
習慣被騙 已令信心搖晃
其實這種沉默才是幫兇
還共同合作綁架我 重組命案
害我還自責 任由我縱容對方

原諒你先要處死自己 難為我再偏袒你
是否太過謙卑 有情緒都只可儲起
其實我討厭到憎自己
我都看不起 戀上罪人沒骨氣
怎堅持還是軟弱地 奉信歪理
壞感情 亦算感情便包庇

自問 若你在面前 敢開口中傷
便殺掉我 最後愛的遐想
無奈你表情上營造哀傷
誠實期待我寬恕你 和她遇上
若要盤問你 為何我躺著亦中槍

原諒你先要處死自己 難為我再偏袒你
是否太過謙卑 有情緒都只可儲起
其實我討厭到憎自己
我都看不起 戀上罪人沒骨氣
怎堅持還是軟弱地 奉信歪理
壞感情 亦算感情便包庇

請你辭令更鋒利
請勿疼惜請插向心靡
迫我下決心 證明心已死

其實我可以愛惜自己 如果我戒得到你
毒死至有生機
挽留我更令我猜忌
遺憾我暫時沒法抽離
卻經已心死 早已預期被拋棄
請偷情無用再避忌 讓我憎你
沒感情 別以感情做這齣戲

Rather Than Resenting You

I become addicted to the poison and can't let go
I let you hurt me until I die and I come back for more
When the poison suddenly takes effect, I sweat blood
I can only blame I let you undermine my self-esteem

I am appeased so I encourage evil
I'm used to being lied to so my confidence is shaken
Actually, my silence is an assistant
You help kidnap me and build the murder case
You blame me and make me indulge you

If I want to forgive you, I first have to kill myself
Am I being too humble? I can only store up my emotions
Actually I hate and despise myself
I look down upon myself for falling in love with a sinner
How can I insist on being weak and believe in crooked logic
A bad relationship is still a relationship, so I cover it up

I ask, if you were in front of me, would you dare to hurt me?
If so, I would kill my last loving fantasy
Helplessly, you look very sad
You sincerely expect me to forgive you for meeting her
If I cross-examine you, why did I get hurt when I wasn't there

If I want to forgive you, I first have to kill myself
Am I being too humble? I can only store up my emotions
Actually I hate and despise myself
I look down upon myself for falling in love with a sinner
How can I insist on being weak and believe in crooked logic
A bad relationship is still a relationship, so I cover it up

Please let your words be sharper
Please don't cherish me, just stab me in the heart
Force me to make up my mind and prove that my heart is dead

Actually I can cherish myself if I can give you up
I'm nearly dying from the poison
Your efforts to save me make me suspicious
Unfortunately I can't get away yet
However, my heart is already dead, and I know I will be abandoned
Please don't cover up your affair, just let me hate you
We have no feelings, so don't act