Lyrics and translation 許廷鏗 - 痛醒

痛醒

沉默算吧 別再管你和誰遊戲
誰想跟蹤你一世紀
天早變亮 卻未見歸期

明白了吧 其實早已被你嫌棄
仍在每晚黑望來望去
望床上那空氣

你快樂完便過來纏我
相信我可 快樂像最初
當初或者我亦試過相信
卻慢慢傳來痛楚

藥力漸過先知道 我每日捱一刀
凌遲或者施暴 不比愛情恐怖
無幸福草地 得一片焦土
是你燒光所有美好
現在我先知道 你愛睡人家的被鋪
骯髒了的身體怎樣抱
沒法再相信愛 也好

瞞住我吧 若覺得我茫無頭緒
誰帳號會寫些動情字句
落甜蜜的花絮

要破裂來吧我成全你 活埋自己
接近立了碑
清醒是否我尚有點骨氣
怕被舊情麻醉死

藥力漸過先知道 我每日捱一刀
凌遲或者施暴 不比愛情恐怖
無幸福草地 得一片焦土
是你燒光所有美好
現在我先知道 你愛睡人家的被鋪
骯髒了的身體怎樣抱
就當你死了 誰要被你擺佈

絕望時能做甚麼 不知道
麻醉讓我被你濫用了我的好

藥力漸過先知道 我更絕情都好
離場未必死路 喜歡你才恐怖
尋幸福草地 不需再乞討
你已燒光所有美好
罪狀我都知道 為何跟你共舞
骯髒了的身體我不抱
願我痛醒了 能夠做到
淡定將你放開 任由我做個單數

Awakening in Pain

I guess silence is the best policy. Stop fussing over who you're messing around with.
Who wants to stalk you for the rest of their life?
The sky has long turned bright, yet you're still nowhere to be found.

I get it now. You've despised me for ages.
But I'm still here, staring into nothingness every night,
Staring at the empty space on the bed.

You only come crawling back to me when you've had your fill of pleasure,
Believing that I can be as happy as I once was.
Maybe I did believe you at first,
But the pain slowly crept in.

As the anesthesia wears off, I realize that I've been stabbed daily.
Torture or abuse, it's no match for the horrors of love.
There's no field of happiness left, only a scorched earth.
You've burned away every shred of beauty.
And now I know for a fact that you love to sleep in other people's beds.
How can I embrace a defiled body?
I can't bring myself to trust in love anymore. Oh well.

If you think I'm clueless, keep your secrets to yourself.
Whose username would be filled with such affectionate words?
Dripping with syrupy sweet nothings.

If this thing is going to shatter, let me help you finish it. Bury me alive.
I'm almost six feet under anyway.
Is it lucidity that's given me what little dignity I have left?
I fear being lulled to death by nostalgia.

As the anesthesia wears off, I realize that I've been stabbed daily.
Torture or abuse, it's no match for the horrors of love.
There's no field of happiness left, only a scorched earth.
You've burned away every shred of beauty.
And now I know for a fact that you love to sleep in other people's beds.
How can I embrace a defiled body?
Consider yourself dead to me. I refuse to be your puppet any longer.

When I'm at my most desperate, what can I do? I don't know.
You've abused the kindness I've shown you and used it as an anesthetic.

As the anesthesia wears off, I realize that I've become more ruthless.
Leaving you might not be a death sentence after all. It's loving you that's terrifying.
I'll find my own field of happiness. I don't need to beg for yours anymore.
You've burned away every shred of beauty.
I'm aware of the crimes you've committed. Why did I dance with the devil?
I refuse to embrace a defiled body.
I hope that when I awaken from this pain,
I can calmly let you go and become a whole number again.