Lyrics and translation 關楚耀 - 求生

求生

我這個世界 似個廢墟
跌痛了 茫茫然喝醉
爬起身多麼累
承認落敗 靜靜撤退

誰愛過我 如零丁島嶼
太遠 遠過了焦距
尋不到暖的身軀
浮蕩於冰冷腦海裡

不講生活 只講生存
存在於廝殺鬥爭裡
人不知死活 只知苟存

寂寞鎖住我 睡前流淚望天堂
命運阻住我 目前仍活著我應該怎麼過
我已經糟蹋了這麼多 我對天禱告要求什麼
誰發覺我不妥

我這個世界 變了戰區
救我救我 神我在這裡
惶恐抑鬱焦慮
成就大業 討個沒趣

誰變節了 以敵人自居
說了算 毫無根據
如開口自己掌嘴 頭上響雷

寂寞鎖住我 睡前流淚望天堂
命運阻住我 目前仍活著我應該怎麼過
我已經糟蹋了這麼多 我對天禱告要求什麼
我已經失去了這麼多 剩下抽搐的痛楚

荒野中掙扎求存 已習慣不擇手段
為自保無得手軟 對一切毫無留戀
世上種種恩怨情仇 面目全非桃花仍舊
全身顫抖勉強戰鬥 痛苦前奏默默承受

天生天養天命難違 人生在世天大難題
昔日光輝今日荒廢 身段放低求生真諦
腳步停低 生命停滯 存在嘅定位 失敗嘅稱謂
討厭污穢嘅身世 討厭成功代表住嘅一切

讓我做廢物我不想做人 誰說人要有火
奇就奇在我熄滅也需要大家許可

猛烈嘅焚燒 一了百了 剩下嘅尊嚴 全部丟掉
無欲無求再無需要 無牽無掛再無歡笑
世人爭分奪秒手上金錶 延續不了 脈搏心跳
時針上嘅分秒逐日減少 阻止不了 火把逐漸熄掉

世界個個逼我踏上正路 摧毀自己發出尖叫聲討
同一個倒模 同一款型號 同一條道路 同一個程度
昔日同袍今日彷如陌路 各自各 被生存 逼上 絕路
背上背叛自己嘅叛徒名號 一早為生存放棄擁有嘅全部

寂寞鎖住我
一座用寂寞建立嘅監倉伸手不見五指黑色黑房
命運阻住我
注定了命途辛勞到終老一事無成到尾於事無補

寂寞鎖住我 睡前流淚望天堂
命運阻住我 目前仍活著我應該怎麼過
我已經糟蹋了這麼多 我對天禱告要求什麼
我已經失去了這麼多 我已經不介意那麼多

Seek for existence

My world resembles a ruin
I fell hard, drunk in a daze
Getting up is so tiring
Admitting defeat, retreating quietly

Who has loved me like a lonely island
Too far, beyond focus
Can't find a warm body
Floating in a cold mind

Don't talk about life, just talk about survival
Existing in a struggle for life and death
People don't know how to live or die, only how to survive

Loneliness locks me up, shedding tears before sleep
Fate blocks me, I'm still alive, how should I live
I've wasted so much, what should I pray for
Who notices that something's wrong with me

My world has become a war zone
Save me, save me, my God, I'm here
Fear, depression, anxiety
Achieving great things, getting nothing

Who has betrayed, becoming an enemy
Talking nonsense, groundless
Like slapping myself in the face, thunder on my head

Loneliness locks me up, shedding tears before sleep
Fate blocks me, I'm still alive, how should I live
I've wasted so much, what should I pray for
I've lost so much, left with only twitching pain

Struggling for survival in the wilderness, I'm used to unscrupulous means
I can't be soft-hearted for self-preservation, indifferent to everything
The grievances and grudges in the world, the faces are all gone, the peach blossoms remain
Trembling all over, hardly fighting, silently enduring the painful prelude

Born in heaven, raised by heaven, destiny is hard to disobey
Yesterday's glory, today's decline, lower prestige in search of the truth of life
Footsteps stop, life stagnates, the positioning of existence, the title of failure
Hate the dirty past, hate everything success stands for

Let me be a waste, I don't want to be a human, who said humans must have fire
The strange thing is, I need everyone's permission to go out

Fierce burning, once and for all, all dignity, all gone
No desire, no need, no concern, no joy
People fight for every second with a gold watch, can't prolong pulse and heartbeat
The minutes and seconds on the hour hand decrease day by day, can't stop the torch from gradually going out

Everyone in the world forces me to take the right path, destroys myself, and screams for help
The same mold, the same model, the same path, the same level
Yesterday's comrades are like strangers today, each on his own, forced by survival to a dead end
Carrying the name of a traitor who betrayed himself, gave up everything he had for survival

Loneliness locked me up
A prison built with loneliness, dark room, dark as night
Fate blocks me
Destined to toil until the end, nothing will be accomplished, nothing will help

Loneliness locks me up, shedding tears before sleep
Fate blocks me, I'm still alive, how should I live
I've wasted so much, what should I pray for
I've lost so much, I don't care about anything anymore