Paroles et traduction 4li - تمنيت

تمنيت

يوم ميلادك
يوم ميلادي
حاس بتغيير؟
لا مو مرة
طيب انجزت كثير؟
لا مو مرة
طفي الشمعة
تمنيت لو اني اقدر انسى الصورة
و يا ريت بذهني لسا مش محفورة
تمنيت اصير ابوي و اخطو كل خطوة يخطيها
اقتديت ببشر شفت صورتي فيها
الكون يتوسع على مدار الثانية و جزئها
قلبي زيه كان و الان بيضيق و يمحى
الكل تغير حتى يلي العكس وعد
نيتي؟ نيتي اتيسر و اضل اكبر الى الابد انا

الاماني ما بتحقق حتى لو ب عيد
بوعد نفسي ما اتمنى بس برجع بعيد
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد
عارف انو زيي كثار واني مش وحيد
Anxiety هالنوتات بتعالج اكتئاب و
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد

بس عادي
ربي اعلم باوضاعي
و نفسيتي و كل اوجاعي
و معاناتي و كل ما فبالي
لولا قوة قلبي و رضا ربي خسرت حياتي
الارواح المنهوبة خلتني اعيد حساباتي
بيسالو استعجال عشو؟ مش مبالغ بالنمو؟
معي وقت مش فلوس
و هم مش عارفين اني بخطط من سنين و مكمل
و ما حوقف الا لو للمبتغى اوصل
بس مش عادي اضل اتمنى
و مش عادي اضل استنى
لا مش عدل انو غيري بقصر يتهنى
لا مش حلو انا بوطن غير وطننا
منبوذ و منطوي لنفسي
مش راح استغرب لو طلعت مريض نفسي
ليومنا هذا لسا بتحبني و تسمعلي
ليومنا هذا انا بحبها من كل قلبي
تمنيت
انا و هي نعمر بيت
سقف و اكثر من حيط
نبني جيل و نشوف جيلين
نربي طفل او طفلين
ابسط امنية بتتبخر
تمنيت
يبيّض شعري اشوف حفيدي
و اول مولود الي و الها انا اسميه بايدي
اول خطوة اول حرف نعلمه كلمة جديدة
بس الوقت تاخر

الاماني ما بتحقق حتى لو ب عيد
بوعد نفسي ما اتمنى بس برجع بعيد
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد
عارف انو زيي كثار واني مش وحيد
Anxiety هالنوتات بتعالج اكتئاب و
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد
كل ما اقرب بكتشف اني اصلا بعيد

I Wished

On your birthday
My birthday
Feeling a shift?
Not really
Okay, accomplished a lot?
Not really
Blow out the candles
I wished I could forget her face
And I wish it wasn't etched in my mind
I wished I could be my father and take every step he takes
I imitated a human in whom I saw my image
The universe expands every second and its fractions
My heart was like that, but now it's shrinking and fading
Everyone has changed, even those who promised otherwise
My intention? My intention is to be successful and to keep growing forever

Wishes don't come true, even on a birthday
I promise myself not to wish, but I go back to the past
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far
I know there are many like me, and I'm not alone
These notes heal anxiety and depression
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far

But it's okay
God knows my circumstances
And my feelings and all my pains
And my suffering and everything on my mind
If it weren't for the strength of my heart and God's grace, I would have lost my life
The stolen souls made me rethink my life
They ask, "Why are you in a hurry? Why are you growing so fast?"
I have time, not money
And they don't know that I have been planning for years and I'm still going
And I won't stop until I reach my goal
But it's not okay to keep wishing
And it's not okay to keep waiting
It's not fair that others who are less than me are happy
It's not good that I'm in a country that's not my own
Outcast and withdrawn into myself
I wouldn't be surprised if I turned out to be mentally ill
To this day, she still loves me and listens to me
To this day, I love her with all my heart
I wished
She and I would build a home
A roof and more than one wall
We would raise a family and see two generations
We would raise one or two children
The simplest wish evaporates
I wished
My hair would turn white and I would see my grandchild
And I would name our first child with my own hands
Their first step, their first word, we would teach them a new word
But time has run out

Wishes don't come true, even on a birthday
I promise myself not to wish, but I go back to the past
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far
I know there are many like me, and I'm not alone
These notes heal anxiety and depression
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far
The closer I get, the more I realize I'm still far