Paroles et traduction Atena - Det Var Ikke Sånn Det Skulle Ende

Det Var Ikke Sånn Det Skulle Ende

Jeg stryker hun mens hun hviler, hun drømmer vel om bedre tider
Ensomt ligg på knekte senger, lykkerus og hvite linjer
Hun er ikke dum, hun vet jeg lider
Fortsatt kald i varme dyner, garantert at hjertet lyver
Hun holder meg på kinnet, sier alt går fint mens jeg stenger alt inne
Istedet blir jeg sint

For jeg hater meg selv mer enn alt på denne jord
Dype sår som ikke gror, gjemmer meg bak stygge ord
Unnskyld, det var ikke sånn her det skulle ende
Jeg skal dra om ikke lenge

Sunnhet i hver dråpe, gift i hver liter
Rett som pappa sa mens jeg falt sammen i små biter
Hun er som vakre roser, kanskje alt som gjør meg glad
Jeg reiser alene under månelys
Gatelangs i byen og titter på hus
Spinner globusen rundt og ser til det øde
Legger ut på sjø sånn som morfar gjorde før han døde

For jeg hater meg selv mer enn alt på denne jord
Dype sår som ikke gror, gjemmer meg bak stygge ord
Unnskyld, det var ikke sånn her det skulle ende
Jeg skal dra om ikke lenge

Alt jeg ville bli, var å være sterk som far
Men her jeg sitter jeg redd med sprengte blodkar
Alt jeg ville bli, var å være snill som mor
Men her sitter jeg alene som en jævlig dårlig bror

Hvorfor er du så rar? Bare bli på fuckings NAV
Du klarer faen ikke en gang holde husleiekrav
Hvorfor sitter du der og kaster bort dagen?
Sammensatte ord metter faen ikke magen

For jeg hater meg selv mer enn alt på denne jord
Dype sår som ikke gror, gjemmer meg bak stygge ord
Unnskyld, det var ikke sånn her det skulle ende
Jeg skal dra om ikke lenge

For det er vel samme for deg om hele samfunnet faller?
Det er samme for meg om hele livet mitt går under

This Was Not How I Thought It Would End

I stroke you as you rest, you dream of better days
Loneliness lies within broken beds, bliss and white lines
You're not stupid, you know I'm hurting
Still cold, beneath warm covers, your heart is a liar, for sure
You hold my chin and say everything is fine, as I keep it all inside
Instead I get angry

Because I hate myself more than anything on this earth
Deep wounds that won't heal, I hide behind ugly words
I'm sorry, this is not how this was supposed to end
I'll be leaving soon

Sanity in every drop, poison in every liter
Just like dad would say, as I fall apart into tiny pieces
You are like beautiful roses, maybe all that makes me glad
I travel alone under the moonlight
Through the city streets, looking at houses
Spinning the globe and looking at the desolate
Setting out to sea, like my grandfather did before he died

Because I hate myself more than anything on this earth
Deep wounds that won't heal, I hide behind ugly words
I'm sorry, this is not how this was supposed to end
I'll be leaving soon

All I wanted to be was strong like my father
But here I sit, scared with burst blood vessels
All I wanted to be was kind like my mother
But here I sit alone, such a shitty brother

Why are you so weird? Just stay on fucking welfare
You can't even keep up with rent
Why are you sitting there wasting your day?
Compound words won't put food on the table

Because I hate myself more than anything on this earth
Deep wounds that won't heal, I hide behind ugly words
I'm sorry, this is not how this was supposed to end
I'll be leaving soon

Because it's the same to you if the whole society fails?
It's the same to me if my whole life goes under