Paroles et traduction Chihiro Onitsuka - シャドウ

シャドウ

結局今まで私を裏切って来たのは私
非情が突き刺さる丘で この目は覚めただけ
愚かさに縛られない様に 這い上がったつもりでいて
この爪は綺麗なまま
満たすの 満たすの 自分を満たすの
『そうする事で 手が放せない』と 精一杯笑ってみせて
脆さを暴くの 身体が割れる様な
瞬間を待つの 待つの
待つの
誰かの何かがトドメを刺すのを待ってる私
『そんなものじゃ効かない』と微笑んでいるけれど
居心地の悪さに酔って 上手く立てないで居るの
ここが何処だって同じ それが私なら同じ
満たすの 満たすの 不安を満たすの
『怖くて明日さえ 千切れそう』と 精一杯 笑ってみせて
痛みにもならない程の 悪夢でも
私は両腕を広げて 広げて
ちゃんと
満たすの 満たすの 自分を満たすの
『そうする事で 手が放せない』と 精一杯笑ってみせて
脆さを暴くの 身体が割れる様な
瞬間を待つの 待つの
待つの

Shadow

In the end, I have always betrayed myself.
On the hill where ruthlessness pierces through, I have merely awakened to the fact.
Claiming to have risen above the shackles of ignorance,
My claws remain unblemished.
I fill myself, I fill myself, I fill myself.
With a forced smile, I say, ‘In doing so, it becomes impossible to let go’.
Exposing my weakness, my body might as well be shattered,
A moment I await, I await,
I await.
I await for something from someone to deal the final blow.
I pretend to be unaffected, but
I stumble, drunk on my own discomfort.
Wherever I am, it is always the same. If this is who I am, then it is always the same.
I fill myself, I fill myself, I fill my anxiety.
With a forced smile, I say, ‘I'm scared, even tomorrow feels fragile.’
A nightmare that doesn't even reach the level of pain,
But I spread my arms wide, wide.
Truly,
I fill myself, I fill myself, I fill myself.
With a forced smile, I say, ‘In doing so, it becomes impossible to let go’.
Exposing my weakness, my body might as well be shattered,
A moment I await, I await,
I await.