Paroles et traduction Kayra - Olmadım Say

Olmadım Say

Bir evlat hangi vakit yalnız hisseder bu denli?
Bütün lafların nedense kifayetsiz hâli
Benle vücut buldu sanki ruhum çekildi
Geriye kaldı sadece taze kan izleri (söyle)

İnsan hiç evinden gider mi böyle?
Söylenilmemiş bir laf gezerken ceplerinde
Güve deliklerinden rüzgâr eser kemiklerimde
Derimi yüzdüler öfke hâlâ gözlerimde

İnsanla sınandım inatla inandım
Kendimle sınandım ısrarla yanıldım
Bir akşam öyle sarhoş olmuşum ki utandım
Doğmadığımı sandım keşke hiç yanılmasaydım

Garip bir lekeydim hemen fark edildim
Sessiz evlerin çocuklarından sade biriydim
Suratlar izledim isimler ezberledim
Şimdi kim miyim? Hatırlatın bilmek isterim

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Zorla zihnimi kemiklerime isimler yaz
Damlıyorken ömrümün saçaklarından
Kalbur üstü kanlar bir yerlerde yıldızlar kayar
Görmedin say, olmadım say

Rengi vardı seslerin bir aile sofrasında
Hiç olmadın sen orada varlığın muamma
Şimdi dev bir boşluğa düşerken uykularda
Bu münferit vaka başlı başına facia

Konuşsun tarlalarda korkuluklar
Bölük pörçük hafızamda kapkaranlık bulutlar
Bakma gitti onlar, burada yoklar
Yıllar evvelinden keder bir anda kıpırdar

Nasıl ağrıdığını biliyorsun saklamıycam
Korkulukla tarlalarda sabaha dek konuşcam
Diyicem iyice dinle güzel bir dinle
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Consider Me Unborn

When does a child feel so utterly lonely?
All the words somehow seem insufficient
As if my soul was embodied within me
Leaving behind only fresh traces of blood (tell me)

Does one ever leave their home like this?
An unspoken word lingers in their pockets
The wind blows through the moth holes in my bones
My skin flayed, the anger still in my eyes

I was tested by people, I stubbornly believed
I was tested by myself, I persistently erred
One evening I got so drunk that I was ashamed
I thought I was never born, I wish I had never been wrong

I was a strange stain, immediately noticeable
I was just one of the children from silent homes
I observed faces, I memorized names
Who am I now? Remind me, I'd like to know

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Pretend you didn't see me, pretend I don't exist, pretend I was never born

Force my mind to engrave names on my bones
As my life drips from my eaves
The blood above the sieve, stars falling somewhere
Pretend you didn't see me, pretend I don't exist

Voices had color at the family table
You were never there, your existence an enigma
Now falling into a vast void in my dreams
This isolated case is a tragedy in and of itself

Let the scarecrows in the fields speak
Pitch-black clouds in my fragmented memory
Don't look, they're gone, they're not here
Sorrow from years ago suddenly stirs

You know how it hurts, I won't hide it
I'll talk to the scarecrow in the fields until dawn
I'll say, listen carefully, listen well
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