ディストーテッド・アガペー - Lyu:Lyu traduction en anglais

ディストーテッド・アガペー

もしもまた生まれ変われたならば
次はどんな人に生まれたらいいかな
明るいだとか友達が多いだとか
もう何だっていいよな 今の自分じゃないなら
自殺志願者も人殺しも偽善者も
教師も聖職者も小さな女の子も
自分自身の心を守るだけで
精一杯 目一杯 それだけでもう時間切れ

出鱈目な空想で今日も傷付いたんでしょう
たぶん言われるの嫌だろうけどさ 少しくらい分かるよ
そうやって 自分だけずっと責め続けて
逃げ出したくて 抜け出したくて
変わりたくて また躓いて

もう死にたくたって構わないから
そこに座っていなよ 見つけに行くよ
誰も代わりになれやしないよ
許さなくていいから 少しくらい笑いなよ ねえ

時が来たら 役に立てるように
ノート引っ張り出して お話を書いたよ
沢山書き殴って見返して気が付いて
寒気がした これは全部 自分のことじゃないか

「いつまでも いつまでも 幸せに暮らしました」
そこで終わるなよ その先だよ 知らなきゃいけないのは
受け取った 幸福を 壊さない方法を
見つけ出したくて 掴みたくて
守りたくて また壊されて

もう誰のこともさ 信じなくていいから
そこで寝ていなよ 探しに行くよ
君の代わりに 笑ってはやれないよ
何もないのは 僕だって同じなんだよ

何かを渡したいのだけど 何も渡せるものが無くて
仕方ないからこの身体を 細かく刻んで歌にしたよ
君がもしも望んでるなら どれでも好きなの拾ってよ
君の大嫌いなこの世界を いつまでもここで歌うから
ここにいるから

もう死にたくたって構わないから
そこに座っていなよ 何度でも見つけに来るから
誰も代わりに許してはやれないよ
君を許せるのは そう 君しかいない

だから
どうにかして生き延びてよ ずっと閉じたままでも構わないよ
それを笑う奴がいたってさ どうせ君を殺せやしないから
自暴自棄だっていいよ やたらと人に怯えないでよ
僕を許さなくていいから 少しくらい笑ってよ
ねぇ

Distorted Agape

If I could be born again,
What kind of person would I be reborn as?
It doesn't even matter anymore
As long as I'm not the person I am now.
Suicidal people, murderers, hypocrites,
Teachers, religious figures, and little girls,
They're only protecting their own hearts.
They're doing their best, their absolute best.

You were hurt again by an absurd fantasy, weren't you?
You probably don't want to hear this, but I do understand, somewhat.
You've been blaming yourself this whole time.
You want to run away, to escape.
You want to change, but you keep tripping over your own feet.

It doesn't matter if you want to die.
Stay right there. I'll find you.
No one can take your place.
You don't have to forgive yourself. Just try to laugh a little, okay?

When the time comes, be ready to help others.
I took out a notebook and wrote a story.
I wrote a lot, then looked back over it and realized.
I felt a chill. This is all about me.

“And so they all lived happily ever after.”
Don't end it there. What happens next? That's what you need to know.
How to protect the happiness you've been given,
How to find it, to grasp it.
How to protect it, only to have it destroyed.

You don't have to trust anyone.
Stay there and sleep. I'll search for you.
I can't laugh for you.
I'm just as lost as you are.

I want to give you something, but I have nothing to give.
So I chopped up my body and made a song out of it.
If you want, you can pick up any part.
I'll always sing about this world you hate so much.
Because I'm here.

It doesn't matter if you want to die.
Stay there. I'll find you again and again.
No one can forgive you but yourself.
You are the only one who can.

So,
Find a way to survive, even if you keep yourself locked away.
If someone laughs at you, they can't kill you anyway.
It's okay to give up on yourself. Just don't let it paralyze you.
You don't have to forgive me. Just try to laugh a little.
Okay?