Paroles et traduction Sajadii - Ghor

Ghor

خالی بود پشتم من هميشه
هيچوقت انتظار نداشتم از بقيه
تو اين دنيای پُرِ نامرد فقط
فهميدم كه مادرم مردترينه، آره
اَ خيلی چيزا ميره حوصلم سَر
من، مهمونِ گلوم كلی بغضه هرشب
بدجوری خستم از اين حال بيحالم
از اينكه خيلی وقته ميارم هی پُشته هم بد
ندارم من ديگه چيزی برا باختن
گذشتو حَل نكرد هيچيو زمان واسم
ميدونی حتی نميتونم اصا خوش باشم الكی
يجورايی كردم به دردام عادت، همچی
هر روز برام ميشه بد و بدتر
يه روزی كلی توقع داشتم اَ خودم من
ولی الان خبری اَ هيچی نيستو نميدونم
برا حال خوب چقد صب كنم تَش؟

خودمو تو خودم كوبيدم هی
خوش نه ولی زود ميگذره
تنها دلخوشيم اينه كه هيشكی نميدونه
چقد دلم گرفته و غصه تو سينمه
كلی اينور اونور شدم صبح نه
شد و فكر ميكردم دِق ميكنه اما ذوق كرد و
گوه زَد به زندگيم و با رفتنش كاری كرد اون
بدجوری ببازم من هرچی كه بُردم
هی آرِزوهام دونه دونه رفتن به دَرَك
ديدم همه از من، منم از همه زدم
اونيكه نداره حالِ توضيح
اونيكه هميشه توی جمعا كم حرفه منم
همچيو يادمه من
اگه بد بودم اوضام ميشد شايد بهتر
برا آروم شدن از قرصا كمك ميگيرم
يه چند باريم رفتم تا لبه مرگ
هميشه انگاری يكی ميزنه تو مغزم غر
جای جيبم داره ميشه چوبخطم پُر
يه چند وقتی ميشه الان خوشحالی كه هيچی
حتی نديده كسی اصلا پوزخندمو
من فكر نميكنم به جبران اصلا
ديوارا از مشتام خستن
ميكشم هرچی كه دستم بياد
يه جوريكه يادم ميره كجام هرشب
نفهميدم من چجوری بچگيم رفت
انقد واستادم پا روياهام تا تَه كشيدن
خواستم ابرو خم نكنم خم شد كمرمو
دراز نشد سمتم دست هيچكس

Ghor

My back has always been empty
I never expected anything from others
In this world full of cowards
I realized that my mother is the bravest, yeah
I am very bored with many things
Me, the guest of my throat, has a lot of resentment every night
I am very tired of this state of weakness
From the fact that I have been putting a lot of pressure on myself for a long time
I have nothing left to lose
Time has not solved anything for me
You know, I can't even be happy for real
Somehow I got used to my pain, like that
Every day becomes worse and worse for me
One day I had a lot of expectations from myself
But now there is no news from anything and I do not know
How long should I wait for a good mood?

I hit myself
Not happy, but it passes quickly
My only consolation is that nobody knows
How much my heart aches and how much sadness is in my chest
This morning I went around in circles
And thought I would break down but I got excited and
S**t on my life and by leaving she did something
I badly lost everything I won
Hey, my wishes went to hell one by one
I saw that everyone was away from me, and I also turned away from everyone
The one who does not have the mood to explain
The one who is always not talkative in the company is me
I remember everything
If I was bad, the situation might have improved
I take pills to calm down
I've been to the brink of death several times
It always seems like someone is growling in my brain
My pocket is becoming a tally
For some time now, happiness is nothing
Nobody even saw my grin
I don't think about compensation at all
The walls are tired of my fists
I pull on everything I can get my hands on
In such a way that I forget where I am every night
I did not understand how my childhood went
I stood on my dreams until they were exhausted
I did not want to frown, but my back bent
No one reached out to me