Paroles et traduction Ummon - Azob

Azob

Gapirma jim! o′z ko'zlarim bilan ko′rdim,
Yo'limdan qoch xammasidan to'yib kettim.
Necha bora xiyonat lekin kechiraverardim sevganim sabab,
Meni unut bugundan boshlab.
Ketarman lekin nimadir mani ortimga tortar,
Lek ishonaman bir kun yurak uni unitar.
Xayotda xatoyim bo′ldi sani uchratganim,
Undan xam battari buldi sani sevib qolganim.
Lekin tolib qolgan sabir kosam,
Ketaman izlab yordam yuragim to′xtab bulgan.
Qollarim ko'ksimga ko′ysam – o'lsam,
Qo′llarim qon, osha qonda xam seni visoling namoyon.
Endi yuragim urmasa kimga xam kerak man,
Yuragim san bilan qoldi, sanga kerakmasman.
O'zi kerak bo′lganmi? Bu dunyoda bir zum,
A xech bo'lmasa sog'inganmiding bir kun.
Ko′zlarim xiralashdi yuragim umuman yo′q,
Astalab kun botardi orqaga esa yo'l yo′q.
Ko'chada qish kunlari manga yomon sovuq,.
Shunda xam seni eslardim sanga qizig′I yo'q,.
Sanga qizig′i bo'lmasa kimga qizig'i bor,
Axir sandan ortik bu dunyoda kimim bor,
San xam mendan vos kechding endi menda xech yo′q.
Mani uyqumkeladi lekin ko′chada sovuq.
Agar xozir uxlasam Uyg'onmasligim tayin,
Ko′karib ketdi lablarim chidayolmadim.
Ko'zlarim yumildi yaxnab qolgan kipriklarim,
Bir biriga ulandi xammasi bugun tugadi...
Ko′zlarim ochilganda qandaydir xonadonda yotardim bir o'zim,
Chamasi yarim soatdan keyin kirib keldi begona insonlar.
Lekin mehirga tola ko′zlar meni asrab qoldi 18 yoshli go'zal.
Oradan o'tardi kunlar lekin lekin mani qiynardi o′sha o′ylar,
Xatto begona insonchali bo'lolmading menga,
Shu begona insonlar malxam bo′ldi dardimga,
18 yoshli qiz tuyg'usi mani uyg′otdi,
Agar shu qiz bo'lmaganda borardim qayoqga.
Mexribon ekan qutqardi mani o′limdan,
O'sha kuni baxt uchradi manzili yo'q yo′ldan,
Astalab sekin unga tushdi ko′nglim unga berdim mexrim.
Lek yuragim berolmadim .
Chunki o'sha ayanchli kun yurak qoldi senda,
Azob-u uqubatdan ortiq ne qoldi menda,
Lekin esingdan chiqarma bir kun kelib boraman.
Sanda qolib ketgan yuragim qaytib olaman,
Sani oshiqlaringdam endi mani kamim yo′q .
Manda mashina bor kiyim kechaklarim ko'p
Axir sega yoqmasmidi kimda mashina bo′lsa
Kimda kiyimlari ko'p xar kuni almashtirsa
O′sha payt man netay sharoitim bo'lmagan
Axir sen emasmiding mani shu kuyga slogan
Bugun kun botib sani oldingga boraman
Senda qolib ketgan yuragim qaytib olaman
Yaqinlashganim sari san tomonga
Ich-ichimdan to'lib ketdim negadir xayajonga
Eshik oldida turib ozgina shoshilmadim
Avval uying atrofiga nazar tashladim
Xammayoq isqirt edi umuman qaralmagan,
Bu yerda xalovat tugab yovuzlik xukum surgan.
O′ylanib qoldimda so′ngra bostim tugmani,
U esa chiqib keldi ko'zlarida yoshlari.
Yoshini ko′rib ichimdan suyinib ketdim,.
Axir mani axvolimga u achinmagan edi,
O'ylab ko′rsam manga u yuragni keragi yo'q,
Manda boshqa yurag manga o′sha yurak kerak,
Senda qolib ketganini o'zingga olib qo'y,
Unga sandan boshqa xech kim sig′maydi bilib qo′y,
Keyin chiqib ketdim ortimni o'girib,
U esa ortimdan chiqdi yalinib yolvorib.
Lekin seni kechirmayman bu dunyoda xech qachon
Axir sani sevganman deb o′ldirib ketding mani...
Gapirma jim! o'z ko′zlarim bilan ko'rdim,
Yo′limdan qoch xammasidan to'yib kettim.
Necha bora xiyonat lekin kechiraverardim sevganim sabab,
Meni unut bugundan boshlab.

Torment

Don't speak, be quiet! I saw it with my own eyes,
Get out of my way, I'm tired of everything.
So many betrayals, but I kept forgiving because I loved you,
Forget me from now on.
I'm leaving, but something pulls me back,
But I believe that one day my heart will forget her.
My mistake in life was meeting you,
Even worse was falling in love with you.
But my cup of patience has run dry,
I'm leaving, seeking help, my heart has stopped beating.
If I put my hands on my chest - I will die,
My hands are covered in blood, and even in that blood, your presence is evident.
Now that my heart doesn't beat, who needs me,
My heart stayed with you, you don't need me.
Did you ever need me? In this world for a moment,
Did you at least miss me for a day.
My eyes are blurry, my heart is completely gone,
The sun was slowly setting, and there was no way back.
The winter days on the streets are bitterly cold to me,
Even then, I remembered you, you have no interest.
If you have no interest, who does,
After all, besides you, who do I have in this world,
You also abandoned me, now I have nothing.
Sleepiness overcomes me, but it's cold outside.
If I fall asleep now, it's certain I won't wake up,
My lips turned blue, I couldn't bear it.
My eyes closed, my eyelashes stuck together,
Everything is connected, it all ends today...
When I opened my eyes, I was lying alone in some house,
About half an hour later, strangers came in.
But eyes full of compassion, a beautiful 18-year-old saved me.
Days passed, but those thoughts tormented me,
You couldn't even be like a stranger to me,
These strangers became a balm for my pain,
The feelings of the 18-year-old girl awakened me,
If it weren't for this girl, where would I have gone.
She was kind and saved me from death,
That day, happiness met me on a path with no destination,
Slowly, my heart fell for her, I gave her my affection.
But I couldn't give my heart.
Because on that terrible day, my heart stayed with you,
What is left of me besides torment and suffering,
But don't forget, one day I will come.
I will take back the heart that I left with you,
Among your lovers, I am no less now.
I have a car, I have many clothes and shoes,
After all, why didn't you like someone who had a car,
Someone who had a lot of clothes and changed them every day,
Back then, I didn't have such conditions,
After all, weren't you the one who brought me to this state,
Today, when the sun sets, I will come to you,
I will take back the heart that I left with you,
As I got closer to you,
For some reason, I was filled with excitement,
Standing at the door, I didn't rush,
First, I looked around your house,
Everything was dirty, completely neglected,
Peace had left this place, and evil reigned.
I thought for a moment, then pressed the button,
You came out with tears in your eyes.
Seeing your state, I rejoiced inside,
After all, you didn't pity me,
If I think about it, I don't need that heart,
I have another heart, I need that heart,
Keep the one that I left with you,
No one else but you can fit in it, know that,
Then I left, turning my back,
You came out after me, begging and pleading.
But I will never forgive you in this world,
After all, you almost killed me by saying you loved me...
Don't speak, be quiet! I saw it with my own eyes,
Get out of my way, I'm tired of everything.
So many betrayals, but I kept forgiving because I loved you,
Forget me from now on.