Paroles et traduction Zigfrīds Muktupāvels - Te Nu Es Esmu

Te Nu Es Esmu

Kas mani apraka zem smagām smilšu grēdām,
To, draugi, neprasiet. Lai vārdi izpaliek.
Caur maniem matiem atkal spārnu vēdas
Kā glāsti slīd un lūpām smaidīt liek.

Te nu es esmu. Tāpat debess logā
Aiz mākoņstikla saules apelsīns
Smej, tālāks vēl, kā kādreiz gurdai rokai.
Bij gaišās vasaras un ziedu dvašas vīns.

Mēs tevi gaidījām, - čukst nelasītās dzejas.
Kur kavējies? Nav sapņu avots smelts,
Pār kuru spoguļojās tava seja
Un dzelmēs krita mirdzošs skatu zelts.

Mēs tevi gaidījām, - šalc lielais dzīves tirgus.
Kas esat jūs? Kā bite vārdi skrien:
Mēs moku nesēji, mēs vezumnieku zirgi,
Mēs tie, ko neapsveic neviens!

Te es esmu. Sīks akmens lielā celtnē.
Kas mani apraka, ak draugi, neprasiet –
Tam ceļā stāties pūles veltas,
Kas aprakts dzīvs un sevi atriebt iet.

Here I Am

Who buried me under heavy ridges of sand,
My friends, don't ask. Let words remain unsaid.
Through my hair, the wings again take flight,
As caresses glide and make my lips smile.

Now I am here. Likewise, in the window of the sky,
Behind the stained glass, a sun's orange,
Laughs farther still, than ever slow hand's reach.
There were bright summers and the wine of flower's breath.

We waited for you, - whisper unread poems.
Where have you been? No dream's source has been drawn,
Over which mirrored your face
And gaze's glowing gold fell into depths.

We waited for you, - stirs the great market of life.
Who are you? Like bees, words run:
We are bearers of torment, we are the horses of carters,
We are those unwelcomed by all!

Here I am. A small stone in the great building.
Who buried me, oh friends, do not ask –
On that road, efforts are in vain,
For one buried alive and seeking revenge.