Paroles et traduction aiko - Jishaku

Jishaku

言えなかった訳じゃないの
言わなかっただけのこと
同じ部屋で何度も別れてくっついた
魔法なんて無くて本当に有るのはここにいることだけ
あなたがいることだけ

感情に飲み込まれ
どうしていいのかわからず
耳いっぱいに詰め込んだ輝いたミュージック
自己嫌悪机のシミに嫌気が差した
なんかそんな日は突然やって来てね

あぁ あなたを大好きなあたしがいるのは
あなたにずっと憧れていたから

匂いの散らばるジャケット
帰って来たらいつもバツが悪そうに椅子に丸まって
膨れたポケットろくなもんじゃない
多分「それなに？」と聞くあたしもいない

繋ぎ止めていた理由に嘘が生まれ
書き直した心に浮き出したダミー
目に付く思い出 薔薇色 桃色
枯れてもあの日を責めたりはできないよ

あぁ あなたを大好きなあたしがいるのは
あなたにずっと憧れていたから
瞬間ときっかけがこっちを見ている
諦めと嫌いはもう抱きしめ合ってる

悩んでひとりぼっちになった
そしたら朝が眩しかった
知らなかったよ
こんな世界も
走りきったよ
あたしの想いも

あなたを大好きなあたしがいるのは
あなたにずっと憧れていたから
反発しあってもうくっつかない磁石
触ると色が変わる細い血管

Jishaku (Magnet)

It wasn't that I couldn't say it,
It's just that I didn't.
In the same room, we broke up and got back together countless times.
There's no such thing as magic, all that truly exists is being here,
Just being with you.

Swallowed by emotions,
Not knowing what to do,
I stuffed my ears with brilliant music.
Self-loathing, I was disgusted by the stain on the desk.
Days like these just suddenly come, you know.

Ah, the reason there's a me who loves you so much,
Is because I've always admired you.

Your scent-filled jacket.
When you came home, you always curled up in the chair looking apologetic.
Your bulging pockets probably held nothing good.
And perhaps, there's no me left to ask, "What's that?".

Lies were born in the reasons I held on.
A dummy floated to the surface of my rewritten heart.
Conspicuous memories, rose-colored, peach-colored.
Even if they wither, I can't blame those days.

Ah, the reason there's a me who loves you so much,
Is because I've always admired you.
A moment, a trigger, is looking at me.
Resignation and dislike are already embracing each other.

I worried and became lonely.
Then the morning was dazzling.
I didn't know,
This world existed too.
I ran through it all,
My feelings too.

The reason there's a me who loves you so much,
Is because I've always admired you.
Magnets that repel each other and won't stick together anymore.
Thin blood vessels that change color when touched.