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Toy

今は出したい自分も隠そう表情も
気持ちがバレないように
棘だらけの掌を無理矢理掴んでる
震える 抱かれてるのに 偏る愛 It's on me
Kill 自我 見ない 君以外

振り返る 今まで彼は笑った？ 一途に恋した中で
一度もないでしょ？そのまま振り向かないよ それが運命
朝が来れば互い他人で 今夜も「好き」と「無気力」と共に
Good good good night 使い捨ての玩具

行為の時だけ楽しそうにする
「愛されたい」 「遊ばれたい」 二人の自分
変にあなたに絡む異性に
一瞬で嫉妬してしまう自分にも
嫌悪感抱き 馬鹿馬鹿しい
自分だけ勝手に折れて

一方的に愛すのは ただの自己満足だ
頑張り過ぎた所で あなたには伝わらない
求められると「幸せ」を感じてる
何故か癖になってる 魅力だけ輝く

私が浮気してしまえば、
「好きだ」って言ってくれるかな？
結局は居なくても あなたの反応は同じでしょ？
飽き飽きしてる抜け出すための努力
追いかける 在りもしない果ての妄想

さっさと幸せになりたい というか永遠に何も考えたくない
幸せにしたいしされたい 幸せが何か分からない
少し汚くても良いから 少し常識外れで良いから

自分で自分を助けるしかないんだ
早くそのうち 好きな人と笑いながら手を繋げる日を

今は出したい自分も隠そう表情も
気持ちがバレないように
棘だらけの掌を無理矢理掴んでる
震える 抱かれてるのに 偏る愛 It's on me
Kill 自我 見ない 君以外

振り返る 今まで彼は笑った？ 一途に恋した中で
一度もないでしょ？そのまま振り向かないよ それが運命
朝が来れば互い他人で 今夜も「好き」と「無気力」と共に
Good good good night 使い捨ての玩具

Toy

Now I want to hide my true self and my expression,
So my feelings won't be revealed.
I'm forcibly gripping my thorny hands,
Trembling, as I'm held, but my love is unrequited. It's on me.
Kill my ego. I see nothing but you.

As I look back, has he ever smiled? In all this unrequited love,
Not once, right? I won't look back. That's my destiny.
When morning comes, we'll be strangers again. Tonight, too, with "love" and "indifference,"
Good, good, good night. A disposable toy.

He only seems happy during the act.
There are two of me: "I want to be loved" and "I want to be played with."
The thought of you with another woman
Makes me jealous in an instant.
I feel disgusted and foolish
For breaking down all on my own.

It's just self-satisfaction to love someone one-sidedly.
No matter how much I try, you won't understand.
I feel "happy" when you need me.
Somehow, it's become a habit. Only your charm shines.

If I were to cheat,
Would you say, "I love you"?
In the end, your reaction would be the same even if I were gone, right?
This endless pursuit is an effort to escape from boredom.
Chasing after a non-existent dream.

I want to be happy right now, or rather, I don't want to think about anything forever.
I want to make you happy, and I want to be made happy. I don't know what happiness is.
It's okay if it's a little dirty, it's okay if it's a little unconventional.

I have to help myself.
I hope that one day, soon, I'll be able to hold hands with someone I love and laugh together.

Now I want to hide my true self and my expression,
So my feelings won't be revealed.
I'm forcibly gripping my thorny hands,
Trembling, as I'm held, but my love is unrequited. It's on me.
Kill my ego. I see nothing but you.

As I look back, has he ever smiled? In all this unrequited love,
Not once, right? I won't look back. That's my destiny.
When morning comes, we'll be strangers again. Tonight, too, with "love" and "indifference,"
Good, good, good night. A disposable toy.