Paroles et traduction あたらよ - 「知りたくなかった、失うのなら」

「知りたくなかった、失うのなら」

見たくない物に限って
鮮明に映るもんでさ
誤魔化し続けた心が
「もう無理だよ」って泣き出したの

それでも好きだから
貴方が好きだから
私は我慢することを選んだの
見ないふりをすれば
今を守れるから
「私は大丈夫」と言い聞かせた

貴方がくれた言葉全てが
薄っぺらな嘘で出来ていた
それを知ってしまった今でも
貴方失うのが怖くて
嘘だと分かっていても
信じるしか無かった

穏やかに愛し愛されてた
甘くて暖かい日々は
ドロドロと渦巻く不安
いつしか飲み込まれてしまった

独り善がりの幸せに浸って
貴方の不安を消し去るほどの幸せを
あげられなかった
自分に腹が立った
今更後悔したって遅いのに
したって遅いのに oh, wow

貴方がくれた言葉全てが
薄っぺらな嘘で出来ていた
それを知ってしまった今じゃ
もう何を言われても涙

貴方を好きな気持ちは今も
変わらず胸の中にあって
それでも一緒に居るともっと
辛くなること知ってたから
合鍵はポストの中に
残してさよなら
残してさよなら

"I Didn't Want to Know, If It Meant Losing You"

The things I don't want to see
Are the ones that appear most clearly,
And the heart I kept deceiving
Finally cried out, "I can't take it anymore."

Even so, because I love you,
Because I love you,
I chose to endure it.
If I pretended not to see,
I could protect what we had now,
So I told myself, "I'm okay."

Every word you gave me
Was made of flimsy lies.
Even though I know that now,
I'm so afraid of losing you
That even though I knew they were lies,
I had no choice but to believe them.

The sweet and warm days
When we loved each other peacefully
Were swallowed up
By swirling anxieties.

Immersed in my self-serving happiness,
I couldn't give you enough happiness
To erase your anxieties.
I'm angry at myself.
Regretting it now is too late,
Too late, oh, wow.

Every word you gave me
Was made of flimsy lies.
Now that I know that,
Anything you say just brings tears.

My feelings for you are still
Unchanged within my heart,
But even so, I knew that staying together
Would only hurt me more,
So I'm leaving the spare key in the mailbox,
Goodbye.
Goodbye.