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Ham

おはよう おつかれ 今日電話していい？
まだ序の口？ 早く目覚めないかな
君の鼓動で飛び上がる この体にも
慣れてきたから
一言目はきっと 久しぶり
それしか言えない それすら出てこない
夢で出会えた翌朝は 息が痛いよ
あざになるくらい
なんであの時 身を引いた君を
受け止めたふりで 疑わなかったの
なんで まだもっといたいよ 君と
もう言えずに すぐ心緩めるの

僕の立場と ちっちゃな嘘で 食べられた
いっぱい諦めさせた
その傷口のほう 僕じゃない誰かに
救われてほしいとも 願えなくて

なさけないけど 空しいけど
君の手を 繋いで歩きたいよ
血の温もりも 色素の距離も
君といたいよ どうしたらいい
どうにもならないけど

なんであの時 身を引いた君を見て
ほっとしてる自分が もうこわいよ
なんで まだもっといたいよ 君と
もう言えずに すぐ心緩めるの

僕の弱さがね 君ばかり傷つけた
いっぱい諦めさせた
だめな僕の根を 自分で罰することで
解決できるくらい 単純じゃないけど

なさけないけど 虚しいけど
君のこと 最後まで知りたいよ
硬い心も 鋭い爪も
君を想うと どうしたらいい
なさけないけど 隠したけど
君の手を 繋いで歩きたいよ
壊れていく この世界でいつでも
君といたいよ どうしたらいい
どうにもならないけど

一言目はきっと 久しぶり
それしか言えない それすら出てこない
意気込むことはないけれど
生きていけるよ 君をさがして

Ham

Good morning, I'm tired, can I call you today?
Is it just the beginning? I can't wait to wake up
My body is jumping at your heartbeat
Because I'm used to it
The first words will probably be "long time no see"
That's all I can say, nothing else comes out
The morning after I met you in my dream, my breath hurts
As if it's covered in bruises
Why did I take the blame that time, when you backed down,
Pretending to accept it and not suspecting anything?
Why do I still want more from you,
I can't say it anymore, I just let my heart relax?

I was consumed by the situation and your little lie.
You made me give up on so much.
I wish someone else could save you from those wounds,
But I can't.

It's pitiful, but it's empty,
I want to hold your hand and walk with you.
The warmth of your blood, the distance of your pigment,
I want to be with you, what should I do?
Even if it's impossible.

Why did I see you backing down that time,
And feel relieved? I'm scared of myself now.
Why do I still want more from you,
I can't say it anymore, I just let my heart relax?

My weakness hurt you so much.
You made me give up on so much.
It's not that simple to solve, to punish myself,
To uproot my bad side.

It's pitiful, but it's empty,
I want to know everything about you, until the end.
Your hard heart, your sharp claws,
When I think of you, what should I do?
It's pitiful, but I've hidden it,
I want to hold your hand and walk with you.
Even when this world falls apart,
I want to be with you, what should I do?
Even if it's impossible.

The first words will probably be "long time no see"
That's all I can say, nothing else comes out
I'm not trying to be brave,
I can live, searching for you