Bokuniwa - Mika Nakashima traduction en anglais

Bokuniwa

あれから君の目に
僕はどう写ってるんだろう
でも今は目の前の美しい日々を
共にしたい
ただそれだけで

悩んだり 傷付いたり 何かを
隠していた夜
君という真実が
僕をいつもためすんだ
見失っても後悔しないか？

ダメだ ムリだ もう諦めて
いっそ楽になりたいな
君が君がただ君だけが
そんな僕に寄り添い続けた

側にいるときだけ情けないほどに
燃え尽きた身体でいつも
僕は僕を
さらけだす

どこから間違えて
どこからこうなってしまったろう
そんなどうしようもない事の
答えに
すがりついてた

誰のせいだ 僕のせいだ 責めても
晴れることはなく
また 君という輝きが
僕をいつも照らすんだ
そんなとこに答えはないと

またか まだか そう踏ん張って
見えたものは儚くて
だけどそんなその夢だけが
君と僕に寄り添い続けた
世の中捨てたもんじゃないなって笑って
君が差し出す愛でいつも
僕は僕を 許しはじめる

写真の笑顔で見栄はって
みんなにイイネって褒められて
僕はカラッポですり減ってく
愛に飢えて
愛の救われてきた
これだけは本物
どれだけ時を超えても

どんな日々がこの行先に
待ってようと邪魔をしようと
君を君をただ君だけを
守るだけの自信をつけるよ
その目線と同じくらいに強く
色んな愛の形を信じ
僕は僕に なれるから

僕には 君と明日が待っている

To Me

How do I appear in your eyes now,
after all this time?
But right now, I just want to share
these beautiful days
with you, that's all.

Those nights I was hurting,
struggling, hiding something,
your truth,
always tests me.
Am I sure I won't regret losing myself?

I can't, it's too much, I want to give up,
I just want some peace.
You, only you,
stayed by my side.

Only when I'm with you, I become pathetically
vulnerable, with my worn-out body,
I
bare myself to you.

Where did I go wrong?
How did things become like this?
I clung to the answers
of
these hopeless questions.

Whose fault is it? It's my fault. Even blaming myself
won't clear things up.
Again, your radiance
always shines upon me.
Telling me there are no answers there.

Again, still, I persevere,
but what I see is fleeting.
Yet, only that dream
stayed by our side.
You laugh, saying "Life isn't so bad after all,"
and with the love you offer,
I begin to forgive myself.

Putting on a brave face with a smile in photos,
getting praised with "likes" from everyone,
I'm empty, wearing thin,
starving for love,
saved by love.
This much is real,
no matter how much time passes.

Whatever days await us down the road,
whatever obstacles may come,
I'll gain the confidence to protect
you, only you.
As strong as your gaze,
believing in all forms of love,
I can become myself.

Tomorrow awaits me, with you.