Paroles et traduction 林欣彤 - 忍

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自少聽得多愛是細水長流
吞聲忍氣夠 只能包庇
延續你的下流

或者苦中苦吃罷我居然能承受
良心已 硬似石頭
就算死都要在你手

是我 我也會順手糟質這個自己
憑什麼使你愛上這奴婢
誰還自以為仍停留十八世紀

什麼都有底線 為何要忍
什麼使你膽敢 橫蠻至今
若為了怕與你吵架
沉默卻何曾讓我 像個人

什麼好處使我 仍然要忍
未討好你先鄙視自己
害你飾演慣壞人
原諒你也難容許我
長期難受都忍 也是癮

或者應該撕破臉再不回頭
誰知我 未敢生氣
被放生苦過被困死

問我 愛到了自卑自賤沒有人味
平日不必照鏡也會嫌棄
憑賢淑縱容狂人同樣也可鄙

什麼都有底線 為何要忍
什麼使你膽敢 橫蠻至今
若為了怕與你吵架
沉默卻何曾讓我 像個人

什麼好處使我 仍然要忍
未討好你先鄙視自己
害你飾演慣壞人
原諒你也難容許我
長期難受都忍 也是癮

可笑是我也真的以為
能屈都應該能伸

什麼都有底線 為何要忍
什麼使你膽敢 橫蠻至今
若命裡要與你吵架
沉默也未能成金 怎麼吞

為得到那點愛 何嘗靠忍
付出的卻可毀掉人生
被愛得不似活人
其實我亦高攀著你
奴隸可能 合襯

Endurance

With all that I've already heard of love as a slow-dripping water
Engulfing enough to pacify and conceal
Sustaining your lowliness

Or the 'enduring the bitterness' that I can somehow stomach
Conscience as hard as rock
Even to die in your hands

It's me. I will also casually criticize this self
On what grounds do you love me as your handmaid
Who still presumes herself to be in the 18th century.

There is a bottom line to everything, so why endure it
What emboldens you to be so unrestrained
If because I am afraid to argue with you,
Silence has never made me feel human.

What advantages do I have to still endure this
Without pleasing you, I first despise myself
Causing you to play the role of a habitual villain.
Forgiving you is difficult for me to bear
The long-term sense of suffering has become an addiction

Perhaps I should just tear off my mask and leave with no return
But who knows, I dare not provoke your anger
The suffering of abandonment is worse than imprisonment

Ask me if I have loved myself to the point of inferiority and lack of respect
On an ordinary day, I do not need a mirror to detest myself.
Indulging a madman with gentleness is just as despicable.

There is a bottom line to everything, so why endure it
What emboldens you to be so unrestrained
If because I am afraid to argue with you,
Silence has never made me feel human.

What advantages do I have to still endure this
Without pleasing you, I first despise myself
Causing you to play the role of a habitual villain.
Forgiving you is difficult for me to bear
The long-term sense of suffering has become an addiction

The joke is, I also really did believe
That if you can endure, you should also be able to fight back

There is a bottom line to everything, so why endure it
What emboldens you to be so unrestrained
If fate wills me to argue with you,
Even in silence, I won't give in. How can I possibly endure this

To obtain that love, I depended on enduring
But I ruined my own life by enduring this
I was treated with less dignity than a human
But I think my standards are too high for you
Maybe we deserve each other