Paroles et traduction Mao Abe - 愛みたいなもの

愛みたいなもの

怒鳴り合うたび
相容れぬ気はしてた
でも見ぬふり
決め込んでいた
責められるたび
そうかそうかと頷き
愛みたいなものに
しがみついてた
バカな私は
傷が深くなるまで
その横顔に
ケチつけられずいた
あなたは私を
強い子にする人だった
それは見事に
でも本当は一度でも
守られたかった
あなたの腕のなか
上手に育てた花は
やがて枝を伸ばし
見なくていいもの
探り当てた
生ぬるく濁った
花瓶の底の水
この根ふやかし
気づけば立てなくなってた
あなたってばまるで
小さな子でもあやすように
その指先で
あぁ 錠ぶつぼみを
いたずらに暖めて
枯らしてしまったよ
愛した誰かに
伝えられない哀しみよ
あなたには欠片すら
持たせられなかった
この愛よ 永久に散れ

Something Like Love

Every time we yelled at each other,
I felt like we were incompatible,
But I pretended not to notice,
And I kept it all in.
Every time you blamed me,
I nodded and said, "Yes, you're right,"
I clung to something like love,
Foolish me.
I ignored the red flags
Until I was deeply hurt.
I couldn't find fault
With your handsome face.
You made me strong,
But I secretly wished
That you could protect me,
Even just once.
I wanted to be held in your arms,
The flower you raised so well,
Eventually grew branches,
And it found
Things I didn't want to see.
The lukewarm, murky
Water at the bottom of the vase.
These deep roots,
Before I knew it, I couldn't stand up.
You treated me,
Like you would a little child.
With your fingertips,
You gently warmed
My unopened flower bud,
And you killed it.
The sadness
That I can't express
To the one I loved,
I couldn't give you even a fragment of it.
May this love
Scatter forever.