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schism

窓のない昏い部屋
白い手が蝋燭を置く
閉じたドア 私独り
横たわり
生まれくる前にくるまれる

不快深く浮遊の渦
澱む波間で沈んだ

もうひとつ在る世界で
もうひとりのわたしがあなたと居る
無垢をよそおう微笑と
濡れた髪が
意味をもち艶めいて

本当のワタシはどっち？

壁を這う異形より
魂は醜いもの
好きと云う気持ちだけで
もう他に
心には何も譲らない

歪む揺れる波動の殻
止め処無く繰り返した

私のなかのわたしが
捨てたいのは未来かそれとも過去
開きつづけたこの眼球が
血に染むほど
あなたを夢見ている

囚われた私はどっち？

もうひとつ在る世界で
もうひとりのわたしがあなたと寝る
破瓜の痛みに最後の
脆いつばさ
粉々に砕け散る

元にはもう戻れないのね

わたしのなかの私が
望むものは現在か消える未来か
震える胸を押さえて
血を吐くほど
あなたを愛していた

ここに居るワタシは誰？

schism

In a windowless, dim room,
A pale hand places a candle.
Closed door, I'm all alone,
Lying down.
Covered before I was born.

Unpleasant whirlpool floating deep,
Sank in the murky waves.

In another world,
Another me is with you.
A feigned, innocent smile,
And wet hair.
It has meaning and shines.

Which one is the real me?

From the grotesque crawling on the wall,
My soul is hideous.
With only feelings of love,
I will no longer
Yield anything in my heart.

Distorted, wavering shell of waves,
Repeated endlessly.

The me within me,
Do I want to cast away the future or the past?
These eyes that have stayed open
Are as bloody.
I dream of you.

Which one am I imprisoned?

In another world,
Another me sleeps with you.
The last
Fragile wings
Shatter into a million pieces.

I can never go back.

The me within me,
Do I desire the present or the fading future?
Holding my shaking chest,
I'm bleeding.
I loved you.

Who am I here?