Текст и перевод песни Angela - 僕じゃない

僕じゃない

僕じゃない 僕じゃない 僕じゃない
いつか過ちを許せるなら

愛し方を知る前に 戦い方を覚えた
不器用な僕の武器は 何?
ただ死ぬだけの人生なのに なぜ強くなりたいの？
想いの丈は小さな箱に仕舞ったまま

大事に 大事にしてたのに
簡単に踏み壊されてしまった

僕じゃない 僕じゃない 僕じゃない
言い訳を探して 傷つく確率は
ゼロじゃない ゼロじゃない ゼロじゃない
いつか過ちを許せるなら
いつか変われると思えるなら

やらなきゃいけない事ばかり 次から次へと押し寄せる
やりたい事は何にもできてない
それでも行かなきゃいけないと 暗黙のルールだけで
責任と僕をがんじがらめにしたいなら

逃げたい それも押し殺して
心は閉ざしてしまう方が 簡単だ

僕じゃない 僕じゃない 僕じゃない
いつ いかなる時に大人になれと言うの？
知りたくない 知りたくない 本当は知りたい
僕の体なのに 舵をとれない
僕の心なのに 制御できない

もう少しだけ自分を知れたら
愛してるの使い方を 覚えたい

僕じゃない 僕じゃない 僕じゃない
言い訳を探して 傷つく確率は
ゼロじゃない ゼロじゃない ゼロじゃない
いつか いつか いつか過ちを許せるなら
いつか 変われると思えるなら

It's Not Me

It's not me, it's not me, it's not me
Maybe if you could forgive my mistakes

I learned how to fight before I knew how to love
What is my clumsy weapon?
It's just a life waiting to die, so why do I want to be strong?
I locked my feelings away in a small box

I cherished it, cherished it so much
But it was broken so easily

It's not me, it's not me, it's not me
Searching for excuses, the probability of getting hurt is
Not zero, not zero, not zero
Maybe if you could forgive my mistakes
Maybe if I could think that I could change someday

There are so many things I have to do, one after another
I can't do anything I want to do
But I have to do it anyway, just because it's an unspoken rule
If you're going to tie me up with responsibility and me

I want to run away, but I'm killing that too
It's easier to close my heart

It's not me, it's not me, it's not me
When and how are you going to tell me to grow up?
I don't want to know, I don't want to know, but I really want to know
It's my body, but I can't steer it
It's my heart, but I can't control it

If I could just know myself a little better
I want to learn how to use the word "love"

It's not me, it's not me, it's not me
Searching for excuses, the probability of getting hurt is
Not zero, not zero, not zero
Someday, someday, someday if you could forgive my mistakes
Someday, if I could think that I could change