Текст и перевод песни Balthasar - Til Min Mor

Til Min Mor

Vers 1:

Aldrig har noget så simpelt, været så svært at beskrive
Hvordan i alverden skal jeg bære mig ad, med at yde mine ord?
Den mindste form for retfærdighed
Når du ikke befærder dernede
Hos os værtslige
Det så mærkeligt du døde
Men jeg ved du er der et sted
Jeg vil ha' du skal vide
Jeg har lagt hjernen i blød
For at ære dig for alt du betød
Balthasar, uden ledstjerne
Vi har en gud der tydeligvis
Forveksler det at lede verden, med verdens leder
Mit hjerte bløder men, jeg vil ikke være den lede så
Må lære med flid og (?) i min adfærd til side
Husk mig selv på at du gav mig livet
Ville ikke være her, hvis ikke får dig
Et enkelt ord kan sige det hele - kærlighed

Jeg har prøvet at miste før
Men intet gjorde ligeså ondt, som det her gør
Engang var jeg din lille dreng, men nu jeg blevet større
Jeg åbenbart ikke stor nok til at vide, hvad jeg skal gøre

Jeg har prøvet at miste før
Men intet gjorde ligeså ondt, som det her gør
Engang var jeg din lille dreng, men nu jeg blevet større
Jeg åbenbart ikke stor nok til at vide, hvad jeg skal gøre
Mor

Vers 2:
Kan huske hvordan jeg fik et chok
Ligeså snart jeg så den opspillede byld på din arm
Men du slå det hen med et håndvift
Løg for vores skyld, sagde det ikke var alvorligt
Holde det hemmeligt du var syg
En måned efter lå du indlagt på hosbis
Og vi kom tit men, aldrig nok i min optik
Hvad jeg ikke ville opgiv
Blot for at vi kunne gøre det hele om igen
For selvom det var
Uudholdeligt at se, hvordan din krop gik fra sund til opslidt
Var smilet på din mund nok til at forblive optimist
Jeg savner dig mor
Og ved du ikke er langt derfra tror
Der er en kosmisk grund til du måtte skille fra vores jord
Ville ønske jeg bare kunne sige det hele, med en klar metafor
Men igen, det som om essensen forsvinder i takt med mine ord

Jeg har prøvet at miste før
Men intet gjorde ligeså ondt, som det her gør
Engang var jeg din lille dreng, men nu jeg blevet større
Jeg åbenbart ikke stor nok til at vide, hvad jeg skal gøre

Jeg har prøvet at miste før
Men intet gjorde ligeså ondt, som det her gør
Engang var jeg din lille dreng, men nu jeg blevet større
Jeg åbenbart ikke stor nok til at vide, hvad jeg skal gøre
Mor

Vers 3:

Jeg kan stadig ikke forstå det
Hvordan jeg var en tiggende bombe
Klar til at springe det hele i luften
Men, formådet at klippe min lunte af
Du en af de eneste grunde til
Jeg aldrig gik ned med mit flag
Men fløj med nye højder i mit sindelag
Og nu er vingerne åbne
Og hvis du er der i himlen, så råb det
Jeg er sikker på vi kan nå hinanden
For du er altid tættest på mig når stilheden er slående
Jeg drømmer om dig men, selv i det vågne
Er det som om du er her
Et nærvær florer som partikler i rummene
Har lyst til at græde så meget jeg tager mit eget liv
Ved at drukne
Det så let at bare give slip på det hele, og fordufte
Men hvis du er her med mig, lige nu, så sig det er okay
Trøst mig som du altid har gjort, og bliv her bare et millisekund til

Jeg har prøvet at miste før
Men intet gjorde ligeså ondt, som det her gør
Engang var jeg din lille dreng, men nu jeg blevet større
Jeg åbenbart ikke stor nok til at vide, hvad jeg skal gøre

Jeg har prøvet at miste før
Men intet gjorde ligeså ondt, som det her gør
Engang var jeg din lille dreng, men nu jeg blevet større
Jeg åbenbart ikke stor nok til at vide, hvad jeg skal gøre
Mor

Vers 4:

Jeg tror stadig ikke rigtig, jeg fatter hvad der gik galt
Og hvad der gjorde dig syg
Hvem fanden kan finde på at tage dig væk fra dine nye børnebørn?
Lille August og Julians latter er så livsbekræftende
Ironien er så syg man ikke kan fat, at det passer
Vi elsker dig mor og tænker på dig dag og nat
Jeg håber du vil reinkarnere som min datter
Så jeg kan tag mig af dig
Dans så elegant på spidsen af en klippekant
Parat til at springe dig i møde, for døden er så pisse interesant
Du har lært mig, man ikke skal strees
Det svare til at komme sit mindreværdskompleks ned i et timeglas
Dog skal jeg nok slutte fred med min inderlige diskrepans
Vi ses en dag, men indtil da
Så ved du er mit et og alt

To My Mother

Verse 1:

Never has anything so simple been so hard to describe.
How on earth am I supposed to do my words justice?
The smallest form of justice.
When you're not down here
With us worldly beings.
It's so strange that you died.
But I know you're out there somewhere.
I want you to know
I've racked my brain
To honor you for everything you meant.
Balthasar, without a guiding star.
We have a god who apparently
Confuses leading the world, with the leader of the world.
My heart bleeds, but I don't want to be the mean one, so
I must learn diligently and (?) aside in my behavior.
Remind myself that you gave me life.
Wouldn't be here if not for you.
One single word can say it all - love.

I've tried losing before,
But nothing hurt as much as this.
I was once your little boy, but now I've grown up.
Apparently, I'm not big enough to know what to do.

I've tried losing before,
But nothing hurt as much as this.
I was once your little boy, but now I've grown up.
Apparently, I'm not big enough to know what to do.
Mom

Verse 2:
I remember how I got a shock
As soon as I saw that festering boil on your arm.
But you dismissed it with a wave of your hand.
Lied for our sake, said it wasn't serious.
Kept it a secret that you were sick.
A month later you were hospitalized at the hospice.
And we came often, but never enough in my view.
What I wouldn't give up
Just so we could do it all over again.
Because even though it was
Unbearable to see how your body went from healthy to worn out.
The smile on your face was enough to stay optimistic.
I miss you mom
And knowing you're not far away, I believe
There's a cosmic reason why you had to leave our earth.
I wish I could just say it all, with a clear metaphor.
But again, it's like the essence disappears as my words flow.

I've tried losing before,
But nothing hurt as much as this.
I was once your little boy, but now I've grown up.
Apparently, I'm not big enough to know what to do.

I've tried losing before,
But nothing hurt as much as this.
I was once your little boy, but now I've grown up.
Apparently, I'm not big enough to know what to do.
Mom

Verse 3:

I still can't understand it.
How I was a ticking time bomb,
Ready to blow it all up.
But, you managed to cut my fuse.
You're one of the only reasons
I never went down with my flag.
But flew with new heights in my state of mind.
And now the wings are open
And if you're up there in heaven, then shout it.
I'm sure we can reach each other.
Because you're always closest to me when the silence is striking.
I dream about you, but even when I'm awake,
It's like you're here.
A presence flourishes like particles in the rooms.
I want to cry so much I take my own life
By drowning.
It's so easy to just let go of it all and disappear.
But if you're here with me, right now, then tell me it's okay.
Comfort me like you always have, and just stay here for a millisecond longer.

I've tried losing before,
But nothing hurt as much as this.
I was once your little boy, but now I've grown up.
Apparently, I'm not big enough to know what to do.

I've tried losing before,
But nothing hurt as much as this.
I was once your little boy, but now I've grown up.
Apparently, I'm not big enough to know what to do.
Mom

Verse 4:

I still don't really believe it, I don't understand what went wrong.
And what made you sick.
Who the hell would take you away from your new grandchildren?
Little August and Julian's laughter is so life-affirming.
The irony is so sick you can't believe it's true.
We love you mom and think about you day and night.
I hope you'll reincarnate as my daughter,
So I can take care of you.
Dance so elegantly on the edge of a cliff,
Ready to jump to meet you, because death is so damn interesting.
You taught me not to stress.
It's like putting your inferiority complex into an hourglass.
But I should probably make peace with my inner discrepancy.
We'll see each other one day, but until then,
You know you're my everything.