Текст и перевод песни CIVILIAN - 爽やかな逃走

爽やかな逃走

優しい世界が僕はとても好きだ 何処にも無いけれど
勝手に脳内の理想郷と現実見比べて我に返ってばっか
占いによると今日僕は身近な人に傷付けられるらしい
そんなの言われなくても もう知っているよ
あそこへ行ったら僕は人じゃなくなる

足が竦んで思わず電柱に掴まった
このままじゃ あいつらに殺される
でも行かなくちゃ

逃げるなよって言われて その通りにしてるのに
それだけじゃ僕に価値など無くて
笑って欲しいから必死でやってるのに
ああもう時間だ 今日もまたあそこへ傷付きに行くのさ
あんな腐った場所まで

優しい世界が僕はとても好きだ そしてそれ以外が嫌いで
脳内の理想郷では とっくにもう皆幸せなはずなのに
これ以上進めなくて道端で吐いたアスファルトが濡れた
こんな思いして何がしたいんだろう
あそこへ行っても また思い知るだけ

鳴り響く電話 容赦なく心臓を刺して
耐えられなくなった 苦しいな
でも行かなくちゃ

誰もが誰かに愛されたくて生きていて
望み通りには愛されないって
分かっているんだよ 分かってる筈なのに
ああもうどうでもいい あいつら全員何処かで死ねばいい
あんな腐った場所には

誰も教えてはくれないよ 君の事だから
いつの間に言えなくなったの
「嫌だ」とか「やりたくない」とか

誰に習ったの「我慢しなさい」って
君の中で首を吊ろうとしている君を
君だけが止められるんだ

行く先の反対へ泣きながら走ってゆく
その先が例え行き止まりだろうと
僕が笑うことを奪う権利なんてさ
涙で曇った視界の上には雲一つないような空が
やけに爽やかだった

A Refreshing Escape

I really like a kind world, But there is none anywhere
I arbitrarily compare the ideal world in my brain with reality and keep coming back to myself.
According to fortune-telling, today I seem to be hurt by someone close to me.
I don't need to be told that, I know it already.
I'm not human when I go there.

My legs gave way and I grabbed a light pole.
I'll be killed by those guys if I stay like this.
But I have to go.

I've been told not to run away, but that's all I'm doing,
That alone is of no value to me.
I'm trying my best because I want you to laugh,
Oh, it's time already. I'm going to be hurt there again today,
To such a rotten place.

I really like a kind world, And I hate everything except that,
Everyone should have been happy in my ideal world, but they aren't.
I couldn't go any further and threw up on the asphalt.
What do I want to do feeling this way?
I'll only realize it again when I go there.

The phone rings, Piercing my heart relentlessly.
I can't bear it anymore, It's hard.
But I have to go.

Everyone just wants to be loved and lives for that reason.
It doesn't love me as I wish it would,
I know that, I should know that.
Oh, I don't care anymore. I wish they would all live somewhere and die.
To such a rotten place.

No one can teach you because it's about you.
When did you stop being able to say,
"I don't like it" or "I don't want to do it"?

"You have to put up with it." Who taught you that?
Only you can stop the person you are trying to hang inside you.
You alone.

I run, crying, in the opposite direction of where I was going,
Even if it is a dead end.
You have no right to take away my laughter.
Above my blurred vision, the sky is clear.
It's so refreshing.