Текст песни Radical Departure: Conquest Must Die - Conquest

Yeah
This is my radical departure
Allow me to tell the story again
One time
Eshon Bombay
Conquest must die
Radical Departure yeah
Yo, check it

Let me take you inside of the mind of what the 'Quest does
I sleep at night with disappointments and bedbugs
Roof's caving in faster than all my dreams and goals
And I work a dead end job out in the freezing cold
My nose is peeling and reeling from it's sneezing role
Satan's using all my demons trying to seize my soul
Sorry, this ain't that pimp, player, gangster flow
No, there ain't a chick in my bed looking like Amber Rose
This is that 'I eat the same crap every night
Saving for my studio sessions', that's my very life
Kinda scary right? Dude it's a scary sight
Sometimes I barely eat, never do I rarely write
Praying that you download thoughts that God has given me
So you're seeking Christ as savior and your liberty
But I'm seeing low downloads and low turnouts
Frustration's got me close to being burnt out
I'm sorta like the candle in the wind
Trying to stay on fire but I'm unraveling with sin
And it questions my confidence
And being underrated is becoming less an less of a compliment
You can keep that, I don't need that
I need you copping the record, I need feedback
Again, sorry if I'm spitting with aggression
I'm talking 'bout things that often trigger my depression
I do a lot of encouraging, lots of supporting
Romans 12 Ten says that rocks with importance
But often, I'm in need of it back
Besides the stuff I just rapped, there's a reason for that
I rise & grind hoping it's my season perhaps
Then watch my season collapse and give me reasons to snap
With extra demons attached and now this artist is sick
And I'm in need of a radical departure from this
Cause

I can't do it on my own strength, Lord knows
That is the biggest lie, the reason why
I gotta crucify on my own flesh, thought so
Yeah, conquest must die, the season's nigh
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die

Yo, pity parties are wack, I'm more mature within
But us encouragers need some encouraging
Or lose courage, found often dead
Cause suicide finally found a way to throw us off the ledge
Not just because of rap, rap was just the last straw
Rejection of our love? that we never ask for
Was the type to be cool with everybody
Til I saw that ain't the rule with everybody
Put myself last until I lacked wisdom
Then they act different, now I'm more selfish with my ambition
Need to change 'cause I ought to
Plus I'm sick of loving women that I no longer talk to
My honesty is coming brutally, truthfully
I'm not friendly as I used to be, you're getting scrutiny
I'm still open to it, but to a certain extent
It's either that or feel the hurt, then I vent
With every breath in my lung that God allowed me
That alone is humbling, shows it's not about me
With all these crosses I bear, I swear I had enough
But being Christ like is to be taken advantage of
And being willing to do so by example
I pray it's something that my life can handle
Cause I'm trying to guard my heart, be grateful & be patient
But Jason's often impatient, I'm real enough to say it
I know a lot of y'all are dying for your dream
Got fired for your dream & it fries your self esteem
Had people walk out when you needed them the most
Then you did the same 'cause the demons got too close
I know a lot of y'all appreciate my straight talk
But this is more than grind, it's a faith walk
Seek the kingdom or my heart is at risk
To the point I need a radical departure from this
Cause

I can't do it on my own strength, Lord knows
That is the biggest lie, the reason why
I gotta crucify on my own flesh, thought so
Yeah, conquest must die, the season's nigh
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die
Cause I can't do it on my own strength, Lord knows
That is the biggest lie, the reason why
I gotta crucify on my own flesh, thought so
Yeah, Conquest must die, the season's nigh
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die, yeah
Conquest Must Die