Текст и перевод песни Creepy Nuts - 15才

15才

昔なら迷わず引けた 引き金が重くなった今日この頃
殺したいアイツの中にすら見出した人間臭い諸々
あの日のトレンチコートマフィア
無差別にぶっ放した銃弾
時を経て 俺の眉間目掛け見事にuターン
ブーメラン
今の俺を見てお前はどんな顔するか
その中指は迷わずにこっちを向いた

確かにsexも知った
理解者も増えた
ある日お前の痛みに俺はメロディーと値札をつけた
だから似たような痛みを求められんのさ
コレがお前の欲したキャラクターって奴だ
襟を正さなきゃと"せいふく"するカラー
染める色 閉じ込める殻
でもその中身は

ゆがんで見える鏡の前
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
Any time
出口の無い袋小路かい？
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
眠れない
そんな血走った目で俺を睨むないつかの15才
その息苦しい 世界は今ここと地続き

その個性はやがて武器に変わる
その武器はいつか重荷になる
自分の影に縛りつける
振る舞え らしくらしくらしく
誰もが持つ別名 誰もが持つAKA
良くもまぁ見事に演じ分ける それこそが生命線
俺も 対仲間 対女 対男 対大人 対子供 対世の中
対会ったこともないどこかの誰かにも保ってたい体裁

また場面の数だけ仮面が増える
その仮面の数だけウソが増える
本音で生きてたい 本音で生きてたい
そう願ってあの日ペンを取ったのに
紙や音の上でなら素直になれるのに

ゆがんで見える鏡の前
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
Any time
出口の無い袋小路かい？
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
眠れない
そんな血走った目で俺を睨むないつかの15才
その息苦しい 世界は今ここと地続き

自分のようで自分じゃない
他人のようで紛れもない
簡略化されたカリカチュアじゃ表せぬ多面体
15年先の未来 まだ逃げ切れない
開きすぎたページに本当の顔は見当たらない
おまえが欲したいくつかを手に入れて
おまえが嫌ったいくつかを身につけて
おまえが願ったいくつかを諦めて
おまえと誓ったいくつかを忘れてる

15 Years Old

Back in the day, I could've pulled the trigger without hesitation, but now it's become much harder
Even within the one I wanted to kill, I found traces of humanity
That day's trench coat mafia
Indiscriminately firing bullets
Years later, they made a perfect U-turn and came back to me
Boomerang
I wonder what face you'd make if you saw me now
That middle finger would have been pointing straight at me without hesitation

It's true that I've come to know sex
I've come to know people that understand me
One day, I put a melody and price tag on your pain
That's why I'm asked for similar pain
This is the character you wanted, isn't it?
With a straightened collar, I try to "reform" my color
The color that dyes, the shell that traps
But the contents are

A distorted mirror
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
Any time
Is it a dead end with no exits?
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
I can't sleep
You from back then, a 15-year-old, glaring at me with bloodshot eyes
That suffocating world is still connected to this place

That individuality will eventually become a weapon
That weapon will eventually become a burden
Tying yourself to your own shadow
Act like it, like it, like it
Everyone has an alias, everyone has an AKA
They play their roles so perfectly, that's their lifeline
Me too, with my comrades, with women, with men, with adults, with children, with the world
With someone I've never even met, I want to maintain my dignity

Again, there are as many masks as there are situations
As many masks as there are lies
I want to live truthfully, I want to live truthfully
That's what I wished for when I picked up that pen that day
On paper or in sound, I can be honest

A distorted mirror
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
Any time
Is it a dead end with no exits?
Tell me why? Or make me smile, sha-la-la-la-la
I can't sleep
You from back then, a 15-year-old, glaring at me with bloodshot eyes
That suffocating world is still connected to this place

It seems like me, but it's not me
It seems like someone else, but it's undeniably me
A polyhedron that cannot be represented by a simplified caricature
Fifteen years in the future, I still can't escape
In the pages that have been opened too wide, I can't find my true face
I've obtained some of the things you wanted
I've acquired some of the things you hated
I've given up on some of the things you wished for
I've forgotten some of the things we swore to each other