Текст и перевод песни DIR EN GREY - raison d'être

raison d'être

愛しすぎていたね あの頃の僕はいつでもそう
でももう見飽きたよ 腕に別の人がいるね
すぐに愛せなくなり 憎しみが込み上げるよ
叩き壊したくなる 僕の我がままも好きかい
言葉よりももっと求めていた
体だけを求めていたよ
鏡の前でただ1人演じきった道化師が
そっと僕の前に寄り言うのさ
君を苦しめるのは僕かそれとも彼女か
1人の僕が囁くのさ
気付く頃には傷つけていた
解り合えない僕がいるよ
鏡の前でただ1人演じきった道化師が
そっと僕の前に寄り言うのさ
君を苦しめるのは僕かそれとも彼女か
1人の僕が囁くのさ
最後はこんな形なんて 気が遠くなるほどに痛くて
目の前で君が笑い叫ぶ 赤いカミソリ見つめながら

Reason for Being

I loved you too much, back then I always did
But now I'm sick of it, there's someone else in your arms
I can't love you anymore, and hatred wells up inside me
I want to smash everything, do you even like my selfishness?
I wanted more than words
I only wanted your body
The clown who only played a part in front of the mirror
Slowly approached me and said
Who's tormenting you, me or her?
A single voice whispered to me
By the time I realized it, I had hurt you
There's a part of me that can't understand
The clown who only played a part in front of the mirror
Slowly approached me and said
Who's tormenting you, me or her?
A single voice whispered to me
In the end, it's like this, it hurts so much that I could die
In front of me, you laugh and scream, staring at the red razor