Текст песни Suicidal Thoughts - Deception

Ever since I graduated, yeah, I thought about killing me
I ain't think I had the chance to make it
Real life started catching up, and I wasn't too calculated
Thought I was insane for wanting my death so pre-meditated
Detailing a situation
Where to start, yeah, where to start
Ever since I was a youngin, there was sadness in my heart
Maybe more than just the sadness and the fact that I ain't fit in with a crowd
Getting older, I ain't think I was gon settle down
Maybe laid to rest and written by my own terms
Permanent solution to a temporary pain surge
Been overthinking it, like damn nigga, my brain hurt
Go ahead and do it so the feelings never rebirth
I'm not a piece of shit, but mentally, I feel like it
And since the voices say it, no way ima try to fight it
The voices come and go, a lot of times, they choose to linger
It's fuck the world, so ima always raise my middle finger

When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fucking tell
If I say it in my lyrics, maybe it'll ring a bell
But these niggas never care until they see the ship has sailed

When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fucking tell
If I say it in my lyrics, maybe it'll ring a bell
But these niggas never care until they see the ship has sailed