Текст и перевод песни EGOIST - 当事者

当事者

幸せを願った だけど
私の目に見えたのは
誰かの愛が違う
誰かの愛を殺す世界で

この手に握った黒鉄
あとどれだけ理性を保っていられるのだろう
それとも私はもう狂ってるの？
わからない

どんなに未来を描いて
望み もがいても届かない
何が正しさだと言うの？
誰が心まで裁くの？

ねえ 命が消える 優しさのせいで
弱さが罪と言うなら答えて
私は誰を犠牲に生きていい？
銃口を向ける
間違わないように

唇を噛む 滲んだ血の味は誰も同じ
あなたはとっくに知ってた
終わりがない悲しみの行く先を

どんなに怒りを飲み込み
消してもその火は燃えあがる
見据えた眼差しの先は
もう決してぶれたりしない

響く 乾いた銃声
遠くで聞こえる罵声と絶叫
正義を問いかける
私と彼ら どちらが死ねばいい？
守れるものは一つしかないから

他人の痛みを想い心と寄り添う
人はこんなにも美しいのに
理由を見つけ憎しみ合うんだね
産まれた事に意味がなきゃいられないんだね
なら これが私の答えだから

命が消える 優しさのせいで
弱さが罪と言うなら答えて
私は誰を犠牲に生きていい？
銃口を向けた
あなたに見えるように

そして銃声が響く
遠くで聞こえる罵声と絶叫
正義を問いかける
私は生きる
あなたを犠牲に
自らの手を汚す事を選んで
私は当事者になる 今

The One Concerned

I wished for happiness, but
What I saw with my eyes
Was someone's love being different,
Someone's love being killed in this world.

This black iron gripped in my hand,
How much longer can I maintain my sanity?
Or am I already insane?
I don't know.

No matter how much I picture the future,
No matter how much I yearn and struggle, I can't reach it.
What is righteousness, you ask?
Who judges even the heart?

Hey, lives are lost because of kindness.
If weakness is a sin, then tell me,
Whose life am I allowed to sacrifice?
I point the gun,
So I don't make a mistake.

I bite my lip, the taste of the oozing blood is the same for everyone.
You knew it all along,
The destination of this endless sorrow.

No matter how much I swallow my anger,
Even if I extinguish it, the fire still burns.
My focused gaze,
Will never waver again.

A dry gunshot rings out.
In the distance, I hear curses and screams.
I question justice.
Me or them, who should die?
Because there's only one thing I can protect.

Thinking of others' pain, empathizing with their hearts,
People are so beautiful like this,
Yet they find reasons to hate each other.
They can't live without finding meaning in their birth.
So, this is my answer.

Lives are lost because of kindness.
If weakness is a sin, then tell me,
Whose life am I allowed to sacrifice?
I pointed the gun,
So you could see.

And the gunshot rings out.
In the distance, I hear curses and screams.
I question justice.
I will live.
By sacrificing you.
Choosing to stain my own hands,
I become the one concerned, now.