ラッパーなのに - GADORO перевод на английский

ラッパーなのに

好きでもない女を抱いた
当たり障りない言葉も吐いた
現実を逃避し、呑んだよ毎晩
俺が良い人ってとんだ誤解さ

まだ登り切っていないのに下り坂
訪れる夜より暗い朝
恨みや悔しさや虚しさが
不確かな明日への歌に変わる

笑われてから、強くなるなら
俺はもう超人なはずなのにな
綺麗事に中指立てながら
綺麗事に振り回されたラッパー

触覚を失い殻に籠り
ばあちゃんとは違うカタツムリ
止まない雨はないとかではない
今降ってるこの雨が耐えられない

ラッパーなのに嘘をついて
恥をかくことさえも恐れて
矛盾した自分の言葉に埋もれてまた平然を装ってた
頑張ったフリで手を抜いて
自分の愚かさにさえ目を背け
分からない奴に分からす必要はねえと逃げ道を探ってた

器用な奴から順に残った
自分自身への無事を祈った
空気も読んだ 自分にも酔った
実は気にしてた周囲の評判

俺の辞書には不可能だらけ
僅かな可能の瞬間を探して
不安の中で
日々無茶を重ねながら歌を奏でる

面倒はごめんね、栄光など無いって
平凡な少年が浴びたゲームオーバーの洗礼
見えるはずの明日が見えなくて
1人違うことが怖くて言えなくて

後ろ指さされてしまうのは
お前が前にいるからだろ
失敗は回り道さ行き止まりじゃねえ
歌う君の街まで

ラッパーなのに嘘をついて
恥をかくことさえも恐れて
矛盾した自分の言葉に埋もれてまた平然を装ってた
頑張ったフリで手を抜いて
自分の愚かさにさえ目を背け
分からない奴に分からす必要はねえと逃げ道を探ってた

本当の俺 なんて元々弱え
けど本業のコレならば堂々と吠える
神様も仏様もほっとけ
唯一信じてるこの喉仏

躓くたび何が自分探し？
紛れもなくお前はそこにいるじゃないか
どの道を選ぶかより選んだ
道のりをどう生きよう

例え売人も廃人も
生きてるだけで人生の皆勤賞
あるはずだろお前にしかないhip-hop
行き詰まりは展開の第一歩

不安不満でがんじがらめ
でも砂掴んで立ち上がれ
嵐が過ぎるのを待つんじゃねえ
大雨の中で踊り狂え

ラッパーなのに嘘をついて
恥をかくことさえも恐れて
矛盾した自分の言葉に埋もれてまた平然を装ってた
頑張ったフリで手を抜いて
自分の愚かさにさえ目を背け
分からない奴に分からす必要はねえと逃げ道を探ってた

ここまで来た、ここまで生きた
ここまで来た、ここまで生きた
大空を仰ぐ鳥を見つめる時
その背景見落としてた

俺は気付いたんだ亀ではない
もう一つ気付くウサギでもない
そびえる困難も前のめり
ばあちゃんと同じカタツムリ

ラッパーだったら曝け出して
都合の良いリアルだけは歌わねえ
自分の愚かさすらも吐き出せたんなら それがリアルになるのさ
散々な日々を生き抜いて
負けた時にこそ胸を張って
分からない奴に分からせて行くまで今日も前に逃げるのさ

Even Though I'm a Rapper

I held a woman I didn't even love.
I uttered harmless words.
Escaping reality, I drank every night.
It's a huge misunderstanding that I'm a good guy.

I'm on the decline before even reaching the summit.
The mornings are darker than the nights that come.
Resentment, regret, and emptiness
Transform into a song for an uncertain tomorrow.

If I get stronger after being laughed at,
I should already be a superhuman.
Flipping the bird to all the pretty words,
I'm a rapper tossed around by those same pretty words.

Losing my sense of touch, I retreat into my shell.
A snail, but different from grandma's kind.
It's not that the rain won't stop,
It's that I can't endure this rain falling now.

Even though I'm a rapper, I lied.
Afraid of even being embarrassed,
Buried under my own contradictory words, I pretended to be indifferent again.
Pretending to try hard, I slacked off.
I turned a blind eye to my own foolishness.
There's no need to explain to those who don't understand, I searched for an escape.

The skillful ones survived.
I prayed for my own safety.
I read the room, I got drunk on myself.
In reality, I cared about my reputation.

My dictionary is full of impossibilities.
Searching for a moment of slight possibility,
Amidst the anxiety,
I keep making reckless moves day by day, playing my song.

I'm not interested in trouble, there's no glory.
An ordinary boy baptized by the game over.
I can't see the tomorrow that I should be able to see.
Afraid of being different, I couldn't speak.

The reason they're pointing fingers at your back
Is because you're in front, right?
Failure is a detour, not a dead end.
I'll sing all the way to your town.

Even though I'm a rapper, I lied.
Afraid of even being embarrassed,
Buried under my own contradictory words, I pretended to be indifferent again.
Pretending to try hard, I slacked off.
I turned a blind eye to my own foolishness.
There's no need to explain to those who don't understand, I searched for an escape.

The real me is weak from the start.
But when it comes to this, my main job, I can bark proudly.
Forget about God and Buddha.
The only thing I believe in is this Adam's apple.

Every time I stumble, what's with the soul-searching?
You're undeniably right there.
More than which path you choose, it's about
How you live the path you've chosen.

Even drug dealers and burnouts,
Just being alive is a perfect attendance award in life.
You should have a hip-hop that's uniquely yours.
A dead end is the first step in a new development.

Bound by anxiety and dissatisfaction,
But grab the sand and stand up.
Don't wait for the storm to pass,
Dance wildly in the pouring rain.

Even though I'm a rapper, I lied.
Afraid of even being embarrassed,
Buried under my own contradictory words, I pretended to be indifferent again.
Pretending to try hard, I slacked off.
I turned a blind eye to my own foolishness.
There's no need to explain to those who don't understand, I searched for an escape.

I've come this far, I've lived this long.
I've come this far, I've lived this long.
When I gaze at a bird soaring in the sky,
I've overlooked the backdrop.

I realized I'm not a turtle.
I also realized I'm not a rabbit.
Facing towering difficulties head-on,
I'm a snail, just like grandma.

If I'm a rapper, I'll lay it all bare.
I won't just sing about a convenient reality.
If I can even spit out my own foolishness, that becomes reality.
Surviving wretched days,
Hold your head high, especially when you lose.
Until I can make those who don't understand, understand, I'll keep running forward today.