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Astronauts

もしも僕が今晩のカレーを
残さず食べたなら良かったのかな
君は酷く顔をしかめて

もうたべなくっていいよって言ったんだっけ。

もしも僕が虐められたって
殴り返せるような人だったらな。
君も今より少しくらいは
笑うようになるかもしれないから。

もしも僕がひとりきりでさ
君に迷惑もかけずにいられたなら。
でもさ、それじゃさ、君を知らんまま
生きてく事になったかもしれないから

もしも僕がうそつきなら
こんな僕のこと 叱ってくれたかな？
そんなたくさんの「もしも話が」
僕の部屋にさ浮かんで行くんだよ。

何も無い日々から
罅が入ってそっから
たくさんの「もしも」が漏れ出して
行くんだ。

今目をつむって
耳をふさいで歩き出したよ
君の声も君の笑顔も
見れないままだけどそれも良いかも。

嫌なもんだけさ
あたまん中から
消してくれたらな
よかったのにな。

もしも僕が正直者なら
これが最後だって信じてくれたかな？
きっと君は笑ってくれるよな。
みんな解ってるつもりなんだ

何度も君に言おうとしたけど
届く筈無くて「おかしいな？」って
君のとこへ行けたならな。
でもひざが笑うんだ。「ざまーみろ」って。

もしも僕が生きていたなら。
君に聴かせるため作った歌
やっぱ恥ずかしくて聴かせてないけど
歌ってあげたいな、僕もいつか。

とどくといいな、君にいつか。

今目をつむって
耳をふさいで歩き出したよ
君の声も君の笑顔も
見れないままだけどそれも良いかも。

今目をつむって
耳をふさいで歩き出したよ
君の声も君の笑顔も
見れないままだけどそれも良いかも

Astronauts

If only I had finished that curry tonight,
would things have been better, I wonder?
You frowned deeply and said,

"You don't have to eat anymore."

If only I were the kind of person who could fight back
when I was bullied.
Maybe you would smile a little more than you do now,
just maybe.

If only I could be alone,
without causing you any trouble.
But then again, that would mean,
I might have lived my life without ever knowing you.

If only I were a liar,
would you have scolded me like that?
So many "what ifs" like these,
float around in my room.

From days with nothing,
cracks appear and then,
countless "what ifs" leak out
and go.

I close my eyes now,
cover my ears and start walking.
I can't see your voice or your smile,
but maybe that's okay too.

If only the unpleasant things
could disappear from my head,
that would have been
so good.

If only I were an honest person,
would you have believed this was the end?
I'm sure you would have laughed.
Everyone thinks they understand.

I tried to tell you so many times,
but it wouldn't reach you. "That's strange," I thought.
If only I could have gone to you.
But my knees just laugh, "serves you right."

If only I were alive.
The song I made to let you hear,
I'm still too embarrassed to let you hear it,
but I want to sing it for you someday, too.

I hope it reaches you someday.

I close my eyes now,
cover my ears and start walking.
I can't see your voice or your smile,
but maybe that's okay too.

I close my eyes now,
cover my ears and start walking.
I can't see your voice or your smile,
but maybe that's okay too.