Текст и перевод песни Lia Shine - Rol

Rol

Bilirsin aramam yeni bi' liman, hâlâ yatağım soğuk
Yapmadım ro-ol, sana yapmadım rol

Yeah, kim dost kim düşman hiç ayırt edemedim
Yeah, bi' bok gibi hissettim geceleri
Kafam güzeldi, doğruyu hiç seçemedim
Yeah, sen oldun her zaman ilk seçeneğim

Tek tek gördüm hepsini, sahte suratların çizdim resmini
Avazım çıktığı kadar bağırdım, yetmedi

Diyorum bazen: "Keşke olmasaydım"
Benim hikâyemde tüm sonlar aynı
"Korkuyorum" dedikçe hep tek başıma kaldım
Tesirindeyim, tutup beni kaldır

Direttim inatla, sana dedim: "Gel"
Gelirsem o kötü günler geçer
Kafam darmadağın, hep yanlışı seçer
Bu gece de biter, bu gece de biter, şeytan aklıma girer

Umrumda bile değil şu karanlıklar
Arkadaşlarım perdenin arkasındalar
Olabildiğince gerçektim, yapmadım hiç rol sana
Suratıma doğrulurken bütün silahlar yürüyorum inatla

Kim dost kim düşman hiç ayırt edemedim
Yeah, bi' bok gibi hissettim geceleri
Kafam güzeldi, doğruyu hiç seçemedim
Yeah, sen oldun her zaman ilk seçeneğim

Tek tek gördüm hepsini, sahte suratların çizdim resmini
Avazım çıktığı kadar bağırdım, yetmedi

Bilirsin, dürüst olamadık kendimize hiç
Söylediğin, istediğin hayat bende değil
Belki bi' hayatım olsaydı denerdim
"Kur" dedim beni, bunu beceremedin

Ateşlere at, bi' tek benim bu günah
Zaten suratıma doğrulur bak bi' silah
Söylesene Aden, tanrıların nesi var?
Davranmıyolar artık eskisi kadar kibar

Drama queen, Amasis kadar vicdansız o
Bakışları şehrim kadar soğuk
Çeteler gezer mahallemizde kol
Yaslan arkama, gerçeklik payı yok

Kim dost kim düşman hiç ayırt edemedim
Yeah, bi' bok gibi hissettim geceleri
Kafam güzeldi, doğruyu hiç seçemedim
Yeah, sen oldun her zaman ilk seçeneğim

Tek tek gördüm hepsini, sahte suratların çizdim resmini
Avazım çıktığı kadar bağırdım, yetmedi

Role

You know I'm not looking for a new harbor, my bed is still cold
I didn't act, I didn't act with you

Yeah, I could never tell who was a friend and who was an enemy
Yeah, I felt like shit at night
My head was high, I couldn't tell what was right
Yeah, you've always been my first choice

One by one I saw them all, I drew a picture of their fake faces
I screamed at the top of my lungs, it wasn't enough

Sometimes I say, "I wish I didn't exist"
All the endings are the same in my story
"I'm scared" I said, and I was always alone
I'm under your spell, come and pick me up

I insisted stubbornly, I said to you: "Come on"
If I come, those bad days will pass
My head is shattered, I always choose wrong
This night will end, this night will end, the devil enters my mind

I don't even care about this darkness
My friends are behind the curtain
I was as real as I could be, I never put up a front for you
As all the guns are pointed at my face, I walk stubbornly

I could never tell who was a friend and who was an enemy
Yeah, I felt like shit at night
My head was high, I couldn't tell what was right
Yeah, you've always been my first choice

One by one I saw them all, I drew a picture of their fake faces
I screamed at the top of my lungs, it wasn't enough

You know, we've never been honest with ourselves
What you say and want is not in me
Maybe if I had a life, I would have tried
"Redeem" I said me, you couldn't do it

Throw me into the fire, this is my only sin
There's a gun pointed at my face anyway
Tell me, Aden, what's wrong with the gods?
They don't act as politely as they used to

Drama queen, as heartless as Amasis
Her eyes are as cold as my city
Gangs roam our neighborhood
Lean on my back, there's no reality

I could never tell who was a friend and who was an enemy
Yeah, I felt like shit at night
My head was high, I couldn't tell what was right
Yeah, you've always been my first choice

One by one I saw them all, I drew a picture of their fake faces
I screamed at the top of my lungs, it wasn't enough