Текст и перевод песни LOZAREENA - 何になりたくて、

何になりたくて、

やらなきゃいけない事だらけ
あぁ山積みをながめ押しつぶされそうなメンタル
そんな生活いつのまにか当たり前となってる
自分のためか人のためか
それすらも分からなくなって
淡々とこなす毎日の
当たり前と過ぎる同じ時

痛くても笑っとこう
その方が効率が良いと思ってた
調子良かったのに今になって痛み出して
頭の中が叫んでる

何になりたくてがんばってるんだっけ？
こんなになるまでがんばって
なりたかったのって何だっけ？
どんなに泣いたって何も変わりやしないけど
止める必要も無い涙 今はありのままに
ありのままに

考えることもいつからか
してなかったな
解けないままの 沢山溢れてた疑問も
今じゃ何となく受け入れてる

帰った仲間のもう一つの幸せそうなエピソード
誰もが 羨ましく見えて 自分だけ
何してんだろうって ふと思うよ

毎日頑張って 何かになれるかって
そんなの誰も分からなくて
また期待に応えられなくて
泣きたい時があって 誰かを嫌いになりそうでも
止める必要のない涙 今はありのままに

自分を守るように 少しずつ固くなった頭で
前より笑う顔もちょっと ぎこちないと
自分ですらも 思えるよ

何になりたくてがんばってるんだっけ？
こんなになるまでがんばって
なりたかったのって何だっけ？
どんなに泣いたって何も変わりやしないけど
止める必要も無い涙 今はありのままに
ありのままに

Who do I want to be,

So many things to do, I have to do
Oh, looking at the pile makes my mental state squashed
Such a life has somehow become normal
For myself or for others
That too becomes unclear
Going through the same old day-to-day with no reaction
The days pass the same, as a matter of course

I'll just laugh although it hurts
I thought it would be more effective that way
I was feeling fine, but now it started hurting
And my mind is screaming

Why am I striving to become something, I wonder?
I've been working so hard until this point
What was it that I wanted to be?
As much as I cry, nothing changes
But no need to stop the tears Just exist as you are now
Just as you are

I stopped thinking since when
I suppose
The overflowing doubts I never solved
I now accept without question

Hear another happy story about a friend who's moved on
Everyone looks so enviable, but I
What am I doing with my life, I sometimes wonder

I wonder if I can become something by working hard every day
Nobody knows, really
And I fail to meet expectations again
There are times when I want to cry and I feel like hating somebody
But no need to stop the tears Just exist as you are now

As if protecting myself, my mind gradually hardened
My smiling face has become slightly awkward, even
I can tell myself

Why am I striving to become something, I wonder?
I've been working so hard until this point
What was it that I wanted to be?
As much as I cry, nothing changes
But no need to stop the tears Just exist as you are now
Just as you are