Текст и перевод песни まふまふ - Kuyamu To Kaite Mirai

Kuyamu To Kaite Mirai

一思いにボクを刺してくれたら
いいのにな いいのにな
不条理な御託で刺してくれたら
いいのにな いいのにな

いつかゴミに出したのに
袖口に隠していた生涯
燃やせぬまま灰になれずにいたんだ

死にたい 消えたい以上ない
こんな命に期待はしないさ
故に夢に魘され
塞いだ過去に咲いた世界
癒えない 見えない傷ほど
きっと瘡蓋だって出来やしないと
ボクは知っていた あぁ
悔やむと書いてミライ

生きるふりをして死んでいくのが
人生か 人生だ

そんじゃボクらはどうしてこの世に
こんな未完成な身体に
未だ 心を持っているんだ

きっと拉げた如雨露で
花を咲かせようとした そうさ
種一つない土に撒いちゃいないか

だから一抜けした 捨てた
この世の流行り病のような愛も
爪の先よりも細い
そこ浅い友の情愛も
知らない 知りたいこともない
どうせ言葉以上の意味などないと
ボクは知っていた あぁ
悔やむと書いてミライ

片道分の蝋を持って
消さないように必死になって
わずか照らした一寸先の
穴ぼこは誰が落ちた跡？
それが人生です ボクら手にした人生なんです
あぁ 生まれたこと自体が
間違いだったの？

死にたい 消えたい以上ない
こんな命に期待はしないさ
故に夢に魘され
塞いだ過去に咲いた世界
癒えない 見えない傷ほど
きっと瘡蓋だって出来やしないと
ボクは知っていた
悔やむと書いてミライ
悔やむと書いて ミライ

消えたいの 消えたいの
何回だって言い聞かせた
夢も見れぬような 後悔を頂戴

Regret and the Future

If only you would stab me in one swift motion,
That would be fine, that would be fine.
If only you would stab me with your absurd excuses,
That would be fine, that would be fine.

I had once thrown it away like trash,
My life that I had concealed within my sleeve,
Unable to be burned, it turned to ash and remained.

I want to die, I want to disappear, nothing more,
I expect nothing from a life like this,
Therefore, I am haunted by dreams,
A world that bloomed from my repressed past,
The wounds that cannot be healed, cannot be seen,
Surely, they will never scab over either,
I knew it, oh,
Regret is the Future.

Pretending to live while dying,
Is that life? Is that life?

Then why were we born into this world,
With these incomplete bodies,
That still have hearts?

Perhaps, like the gentle rain,
We attempted to make flowers bloom, yes,
But did we not sow our seeds on barren soil?

That is why I dropped out, I discarded it,
Love, the plague that spreads in this world,
More flimsy than the tip of a fingernail,
The shallow affections of so-called friends,
I do not know, I do not care to know,
Because anyway, words hold no meaning,
I knew it, oh,
Regret is the Future.

Holding onto a one-way candle,
Desperately trying not to let it go out,
The meager light illuminates only a short distance,
Whose footprints are those in the potholes?
That is life, the life we have been given.
Oh, was it a mistake,
Just to have been born?

I want to die, I want to disappear, nothing more,
I expect nothing from a life like this,
Therefore, I am haunted by dreams,
A world that bloomed from my repressed past,
The wounds that cannot be healed, cannot be seen,
Surely, they will never scab over either,
I knew it,
Regret is the Future,
Regret is the Future.

I want to disappear, I want to disappear,
I have told myself countless times,
Give me a regret so profound, I can't even dream.