Текст и перевод песни Mirei Toyama - 偽愛

偽愛

グラスの中のice cubeと快感に溺れ溶けた時に朝を
迎えもうただの君に戻ってる
ってことは口にはしないでって

言わせないでって「イかせないで」って
声を殺したってもう気づいてるよ
沈めた欲情が君と重なる
瞬く間にまた微かにざわめく

「ごめんね」なんてかけることもなく
君の手を引いて気づけば同じ夜へ
小節をただ刻むようにそっと響いてる
軋み揺れるシングルベッドで2人

相槌なしに愛撫しかける
形だけの「大好き」に濡れたままで
気づけば眠りについてた僕を
寂しそうに後ろから抱きしめた

ドアが閉まってく最中君に「待って」
なんて言えやしなくてまた口が止まってる
君の好きなAlcoholに裸同士ダイビング
都合いいときに呼んで都合よく終わってく
きっとそう思われてることも僕は知ってる
消える背中浮かぶ想い
部屋に一人いれば
消えぬままでクズだなんてわかってるよ
だけどまた求めてる身体が君の身体を

君の糸と距離を縮めることはできない
けれど君と身体だけは夜になれば重なり
涙流す身体すらも快感に変わってる
わかってるさ
告げ口は糸を切るハサミと
二人だけの空間で喘ぎ殺す瞬間
ダメだなんて気づいてた
だけどまたキスした
都合悪い言葉には口を口で塞いで
愛情と欲情を偽りズラしてく

寂しいけど会った時どこかを疑って
最後は私も賢者
自分自身が何してるか分からなく酒飲み 酔い 正座
ヤると好きになって君がその気になったら「やっぱいいや」
ガチクズじゃん
今更気づいた中途半端

君に他のセフレ出来た時は嫉妬する
Everyday
腹立つよねメンヘラ気質
ごめんね残念な出来で
戻れない 戻れない 戻れないよ
「これで最後」とか思うけど
恋愛めんどいしくしゃくしゃ

セフレじゃ響き悪いじゃん
深いとこを見たくもないじゃん
良い愛だけ共有したいじゃん
今日も過食苦しくて吐いた
このおかし過ぎる現象をなんて呼ぶんだろう？
ほら まただよ 君に逢いたくなってきてるんだ どうしよう
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Fake Love

When I drown in the ice cubes in my glass and in the pleasure, I greet the morning
And become just your friend again
I won't say it out loud

Don't let me say it, "Don't make me cum",
Even if I try to muffle my voice, you can tell,
My desires are now connected to you
And it will start to stir slightly again in an instant

Without saying "I'm sorry",
I take your hand and before I know it, we're back to the same night
Softly echoing as if just marking the beat
The two of us on a squeaky, swaying single bed

You start caressing me without even a nod
Soaked in your false "I love you"
Before I know it, I fall asleep
And you hug me sadly from behind

As the door closes, I say to you, "Wait,
But I can't say it and my mouth stops again
We dive into your favorite alcohol naked
You call me when it's convenient for you and it ends when it's convenient for you
I know that you must think that
Your back disappears, and you think
If I'm alone in the room
I know that I'm a piece of shit and that I will never change
But my body wants yours again

I can't close the distance between your thread and mine
But your body and mine overlap at night
Even the body that sheds tears turns into pleasure
I know
A告げ口 (gossiping) is like a pair of scissors that cut the thread
The moment we gasp for breath in a space for only the two of us
I knew it was bad
But I kissed you again
I cover your mouth with mine for the words that are inconvenient
I distort love and desire and mix them up

I'm lonely, but when I see you, I doubt something
In the end, I'm also a wise sage
I don't know what I'm doing, so I drink alcohol, get drunk, and kneel
When I have sex with you, I fall in love, but if you start feeling that way, I'll say, "Nevermind"
I'm a total piece of shit
I just realized I'm a half-baked lover

I get jealous when you have other fuck buddies
Everyday
It pisses me off that I'm so insecure
I'm sorry I'm so disappointing
I can't go back, I can't go back, I can't go back
I always think, "This is the last time,"
But love is annoying, and I'm all twisted up

The word fuck buddy has a negative connotation, right?
I don't want to see the deep parts of you, do I?
I just want to share the good parts of love, right?
I overeat again today and it hurt so I threw up
What should I call this ridiculous phenomenon?
Look, it's happening again. I want to see you again. What should I do?
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