Dilemma - MUCC перевод на английский

Dilemma

「悲しくて耳を塞いだ モノクロのジレンマが支配してる場所」
何も見えなくて 心も 体も 何もかも消え散る
見えすぎた心の葛藤は消せない 偽りの時間に流されて行く
昔書いた自分宛の手紙は
理想の時を刻み続ける
終わらない夢だった
あの頃の思いすべて あの空へ溶け消えてしまえ
果てし無い青の中へ 振り向かず進んで行けたらなぁ
「悲しくて理想の時を作り出せず否定だけを繰り返した」
自虐的なボク 本当の心は崩れていった
眠りの中 夢の中で また夢を見る
嘘の姿はとてもキレイで
醜かった
枯れてしまった花を 泣きながら摘んで帰ってる
偽善的な人が振り向いた ボクは彼が嫌いだった
涙を流さない僕を 指をさして笑ってる
あの丘の奇形児達 その中に独りの自分がいた

Dilemma

In this place where the monochrome dilemma reigns supreme, with sadness blocking my ears,
I can see nothing, and my heart and body, everything, vanish away.
The struggle in my heart, which I've seen too much of, cannot be erased, flowing away in this false time.
The letter to myself I wrote long ago
Continues to etch an ideal time.
It was an endless dream.
All those thoughts from back then, let them dissolve into that sky and disappear.
Unable to turn back, towards that endless blue, I wish I could keep moving forward.
Unable to create an ideal time because of my sadness, I only repeated my denials.
Self-destructive me, my true heart crumbled away.
In my sleep, within my dreams, I dream again.
The lie you showed was so beautiful and
Ugly.
I'm taking home the withered flowers as I weep.
The hypocritical person turned around, I hated him.
Pointing his finger, he laughed at me who never shed a tear.
Among those deformed children on that hill, there was one who was me.