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History of silence

사실은 그게 아니라고
홧김에 그냥 한번 해 본 얘기라고
웃어넘길 수 없겠냐고
말해주길 바랬지

사실 정확히 반대라고
솔직히 너도 내 맘 다 알고 있지 않냐고
붙잡아 주길 바란다고 말해주길 바랬지

하지만 이미 넌 꽤 오랜 동안 준비해 온 듯 해
니 안엔 더 이상 내가 머물 곳 따윈 없는 듯해

좀 지쳤던 것뿐이라고
누구나 가끔 그럴 때가 있지 않냐고
위로해 주면 안되냐고 말해주길 바랬지

아직도 잘 모르겠냐고
조금 더 안아주길 바란 것뿐이라고
그렇게 해 줄 수 없겠냐고 말해주길 바랬지

하지만 이미 넌 꽤 오랜 동안 준비해 온 듯 해
니 안엔 더 이상 내가 머물 곳 따윈 없는 듯해

이제와 이런 생각 쓸데 없단 걸 알지만
미리, 조금이라도 미리 알았더라면
지금과는 좀 달라졌을까

달라지긴 했을까
니가 아니면 안 된다고
너무 흔한 말이라 조금 그렇긴 해도
머물러 주길 바란다고 말해 볼 걸 그랬지

History of silence

The truth is, it's not like that
I just said it in the heat of the moment
Can't you just laugh it off?
That's what I wanted you to say

The truth is, it's the complete opposite
Honestly, you know my heart
I wanted you to say that you wanted to hold on to me

But it seems like you've been preparing for this for a long time
It seems like there's no place for me in your heart anymore

It's just that I was a little tired
Doesn't everyone get tired sometimes?
I wanted you to say that you could comfort me

Don't you still get it?
I just wanted you to hold me a little longer
I wanted you to say that you could do that

But it seems like you've been preparing for this for a long time
It seems like there's no place for me in your heart anymore

I know it's useless to think about this now
If only I had known, even a little bit earlier
Would things be different now?

Would they have been different?
I can't live without you
It's such a cliché, but
I would have told you that I wanted you to stay