Текст и перевод песни Rafa Espino - Soliloquio

Soliloquio

¿Sabes qué?, recojo mis cosas y me voy
Estoy cansado, estoy harto de repetirte
Que hay más cosas que la música
Que hay personas que te quieren
Que están ahí afuera esperando a que salgas de tu cuarto
Y dejes de pensar siempre en el jodido mismo tema
Date cuenta de una vez mano

Aún me acuerdo de nuestros primeros raps, de querer más
Devorar las métricas que al compás van de intentar dar
Lo que quede y pa′ el que cede no hay CD que se merezca ya
Todo marchaba bien, pero te fuiste man
Tú te alejaste y me dejaste con el lastre atrás

Tanto pesaba, pero nada me apartaba de mi meta
Que era cara, pero estaba clara iba a llegar
Y duele que el teléfono ya nunca suene
Déjalo pasar verás tu mal ganar a tu arsenal, te iras, ¿Sabes?, mueres
Deja que me entere y no que te eleve
Y ven déjate ya ver, ten cuélate en mi mente mi sien mi, y alma la de cien mil
No te vendí, yo te perdí, deja de huir de mí

Te estuvimos buscando sin suerte
Toda la familia, tu novia, tu gente
Tanto tiempo sin verte
Sin ti no soy yo solo me oigo gritando detente
Aunque sé que no vuelves escribo y no olvido
Camino a tu suerte
Tan fuerte y perdido me ves que
Juro que si vienes de una vez te valoraré como te mereces

El espejo hoy me pide otro intento
Que saque las fuerzas de dentro
Que vuelva el de siempre, que sé que no ha muerto
Un amigo, un hermano, al que yo represento
No me reconozco y sí que me arrepiento
Creí controlarlo y me perdí tan lento
Me falta, y lo enfrento, me calma al momento
Me salva de estar mal me alarma el alma si le pierdo y

El espejo hoy me pide otro intento
Que saque las fuerzas de dentro
Que vuelva el de siempre, que sé que no ha muerto
Un amigo, un hermano, al que yo represento
No me reconozco y sí que me arrepiento
Creí controlarlo y me perdí tan lento
Me falta, y lo enfrento, me calma al momento
Me salva de estar mal me alarma el alma si le pierdo y

Callando vivo en mi diluvio y jamás lo repudio o habrá tormenta
Mientras sigo en el estudio, rimando y preludio el final si tú estás de vuelta
Quítame la venda si se tensa mi protesta
De esa que pide que vengas y lo entenderé
Sabré que si te fuiste fue
Porque todo lo que hiciste por mí no lo tuve en cuenta

Y cuántas veces te fallé, sin salir me quedé, sin decir ni el por qué
No había fin para el REC, hasta aquí dije
Y vi que pa' ti yo era el king de este ring
Me venciste, caí y me monté en mi nube
Ven sube no me contuve
Me escudé de ti en cuanto pude y
No mamá y si mi fama y si difaman de mi rap a la cama y sudé

Y es que yo nunca pude con todo
No quiero ser pro, quiero ser yo tan solo
Que vuelvas aquí bro′, y que codo con codo
Luchemos unidos busquemos el modo de
Renacer, de crecer, con mi gente, y no indigente
Con mi gen, del músico demente, que deserte
Mi corazón de quererte y ya nunca te vuelva a ver por él

El espejo hoy me pide otro intento
Que saque las fuerzas de dentro
Que vuelva el de siempre, que sé que no ha muerto
Un amigo, un hermano, al que yo represento
No me reconozco y sí que me arrepiento
Creí controlarlo y me perdí tan lento
Me falta, y lo enfrento, me calma al momento
Me salva de estar mal me alarma el alma si le pierdo y

El espejo hoy me pide otro intento
Que saque las fuerzas de dentro
Que vuelva el de siempre, que sé que no ha muerto
Un amigo, un hermano, al que yo represento
No me reconozco y sí que me arrepiento
Creí controlarlo y me perdí tan lento
Me falta, y lo enfrento, me calma al momento
Me salva de estar mal me alarma el alma si le pierdo y

Esto está dedicado de mí para mí
La persona detrás del rapero
Para el Rafa Espino que vive y no lo escribe
Que sigue siendo mi álterego

Que se fue, pero ha vuelto, he descubierto
Que sin él yo no puedo ser quien siempre fui
De seguir no a la gente que quiero
Y salir de este oscuro agujero y

¿Cuántas veces me faltaste?
¿Cómo querías que saliera adelante?
Tú que sabes que si escribo revivo y me olvido de todo un instante
Pero no compensa el vacío que siento
Y que nada ni nadie me falte
Prefiero alejarme un poco de este mundo infernal
Que me enerva, al que cuesta dejar de cantarle

Soliloquy

You know what? I'm packing my things and leaving
I'm tired, I'm fed up with repeating to you
That there are more things than music
That there are people who love you
That they are out there waiting for you to leave your room
And stop always thinking about the same damn thing
Realize it once and for all, man

I still remember our first raps, wanting more
Devouring the metrics that to the beat go from trying to give
What's left and for the one who gives in there's no CD that deserves it anymore
Everything was going well, but you left, man
You walked away and left me with the burden behind

It weighed so much, but nothing took me away from my goal
It was expensive, but it was clear I was going to get there
And it hurts that the phone never rings anymore
Let it go, you'll see your bad win to your arsenal, you'll go, you know, you die
Let me bury and not elevate you
And come let yourself be seen, sneak into my mind my temple, and soul of a hundred thousand
I didn't sell you, I lost you, stop running from me

We were looking for you with no luck
The whole family, your girlfriend, your people
So long without seeing you
Without you I'm not myself, I only hear myself shouting stop
Although I know you're not coming back, I write and I don't forget
On my way to your destiny
So strong and lost you see that
I swear that if you come at once I will value you as you deserve

The mirror today asks me for another try
To get the strength from within
To bring back the usual me, who I know hasn't died
A friend, a brother, whom I represent
I don't recognize myself and yes, I regret it
I thought I had it under control and I lost myself so slowly
I miss him, and I face it, it calms me at the moment
It saves me from feeling bad, my soul alarms me if I lose him and

The mirror today asks me for another try
To get the strength from within
To bring back the usual me, who I know hasn't died
A friend, a brother, whom I represent
I don't recognize myself and yes, I regret it
I thought I had it under control and I lost myself so slowly
I miss him, and I face it, it calms me at the moment
It saves me from feeling bad, my soul alarms me if I lose him and

Silently I live in my flood and I never repudiate it or there will be a storm
While I continue in the studio, rhyming and prelude the end if you're back
Take the blindfold off me if my protest tightens
The one that asks you to come and I'll understand it
I will know that if you left it was
Because I didn't take into account everything you did for me

And how many times did I let you down, I stayed without going out, without even saying why
There was no end to the REC, I said until here
And I saw that for you I was the king of this ring
You beat me, I fell and I got on my cloud
Come up, I couldn't hold back
I shielded myself from you as much as I could and
No mom and if my fame and if they defame my rap to bed and I sweated

And it's that I could never handle everything
I don't want to be a pro, I just want to be me
That you come back here bro', and that side by side
Let's fight together, let's find the way to
Reborn, to grow, with my people, and not indigent
With my gene, of the demented musician, who deserts
My heart to love you and never see you again for it

The mirror today asks me for another try
To get the strength from within
To bring back the usual me, who I know hasn't died
A friend, a brother, whom I represent
I don't recognize myself and yes, I regret it
I thought I had it under control and I lost myself so slowly
I miss him, and I face it, it calms me at the moment
It saves me from feeling bad, my soul alarms me if I lose him and

The mirror today asks me for another try
To get the strength from within
To bring back the usual me, who I know hasn't died
A friend, a brother, whom I represent
I don't recognize myself and yes, I regret it
I thought I had it under control and I lost myself so slowly
I miss him, and I face it, it calms me at the moment
It saves me from feeling bad, my soul alarms me if I lose him and

This is dedicated from me to me
The person behind the rapper
For the Rafa Espino who lives and doesn't write it
Who continues to be my alter ego

Who left, but has returned, I have discovered
That without him I can't be who I always was
To keep not following the people I love
And get out of this dark hole and

How many times did you fail me?
How did you want me to get ahead?
You who know that if I write, I revive and forget everything for a moment
But it doesn't compensate for the emptiness I feel
And that I don't lack anything or anyone
I prefer to distance myself a little from this infernal world
That unnerves me, to which it is difficult to stop singing