Текст и перевод песни RIKU - 葛藤

葛藤

21年前のこんな朝 この世に命を預かって
光の世界あたたかい胸に抱かれてた
いつの間にかたった一人きり

容赦なく吹きぬける風
無駄に人を傷つけていたあの頃
こんな家に生まれて来たくはなかった
母の背中に吐き捨てて飛び出した夜
また今日も意味もなく急いでいる
失くして行くあのぬくもり
また明日も弱い自分を隠すのか
崩れそうに積み重なる無謀な日々
そして街は色を変えながら時は過ぎ
過去を悔やんだ

強がりだけじゃ生きられないとつぶやいて
流れ続ける雲を見上げて
心は空っぽになった
確かなものとはいったい何なのか
おまえらには社会にでる資格がない
冷たい廊下に響いた乾いた声
また今日も心が試されている
許し合い裏切られる
また明日も歩き捜し求めて行く
動かせない色褪せない強い証を

人の波と欲望になびくな
生き残れ溜息の街黒い都会で
また今日も答えをせまられている
失くしてく 未来と夢
また明日も弱い自分を隠すのか
崩れそうに積み重なる無謀な日々
また今日も心が試されている
許し合い裏切られる
また明日も歩き捜し求めて行く
動かせない色褪せない強い証しを

Contradiction

21 years ago on a morning like this, I was given life
In a warm embrace, I was held close to the light
When did I find myself all alone?

The wind blows unforgivingly
Those days when I recklessly hurt others
I didn't want to be born into this family
Those words I spitefully spat at my mother's back, as I stormed out that night
Today again, I'm rushing for no reason
Losing that warmth
Tomorrow I'll have to hide my weakness again
These reckless days pile up, threatening to crush me
And time passes by as the city transforms
I have regrets

I mutter that I can't live on bravado alone
I look up at the flowing clouds
My heart has become empty
What exactly is something true?
You're not qualified to go out into society
A cold, dry voice echoed through the hall
Once again today, my heart is being tested
Forgiven and betrayed
Tomorrow too, I will keep walking and searching
For an unshakeable, unforgettable, powerful proof

Don't give in to the waves of people and desires
Survive the city of sighs, the dark metropolis
Again today, I'm being asked for the answer
I'm losing my future and dreams
Tomorrow too, I'll have to hide my weakness again
These reckless days pile up, threatening to crush me
Once again today, my heart is being tested
Forgiven and betrayed
Tomorrow too, I will keep walking and searching
For an unshakeable, unforgettable, powerful proof