Текст и перевод песни Shoxrux - O'zing

O'zing

Olamda o'zgarish bor, lekin qalbimda bir hol, yurakda bir fasl qish
Har bir ishda malol,
Azali yo'q hamda oxiri ko'rinmas yo'l, lim zulmu zavol

Istak sari hayotimning tarkibidagi,
Dardu g'am bilan arang qo'zg'alaman manzillaringa
Yarim qalb, o'ksigan ko'ngil bilan intilaman visolinga

Ko'zlarimning teranligida o'zga sayora, unutdim qay zamon, qaysi vaqt
Harakatim soddai-rasvo bo'lish davogarligida

Bilaman-ki, na bir taxt,
Na bir baxt bor maning uchun o'zingsiz,
Yozdim man, kuydim ham, yuz parchaga bo'lindim
Butun umr izlaganim uchun ham,
Nimani ko'rsam ham uni o'zing deb bildim

Har vaqti sahar uchrashgani tayyor turaman beor, bedor va beozor
So'zlagin aniq muntazirman, man o'zim deb emas, o'zingni deb yashayman

Har vaqti sahar ko'zdan oqqan
Tomchilarimni sanab, kaftimga tavbalarimni chorlab
Oqaman suv kabi behol, bir qarab kuydiradigan zar nazaringni tilab

Hayollarimdan o'tadi ming hil sodir bo'lishi mumkin bo'lgan hodisa
Qalam yozar kunduzu oqshomimdagi nolalarimni, maning misoli qalandar

Hayotim dunyoning orzu havaslaridan holi
Bo'lgan bir g'amgin asar, negadir eshtilmaysan
Bemor holimni so'ragani keldi hamma,
Faqat o'zing kelmading holimni so'rab, nega?

Vaqt o'tar ketar
Ko'zlarim bedorligi bo'yi tonglarim otar
So'zimda bugunda faqat g'amginlik
Bo'sini borida-borida negizi cheksiz mamnunlik

Talpinaman,
Yorim ko'pdan-ko'pi kamida, jami son-sanog'i yo'q to'siqlarni
Topaman deb surdim qo'llarim bilan bulutlarni
Topdim faqat yulduzlarni
Undan ortig'i emas

Mayli gardanimga ilinsin olamlar og'irligi
Man axir roziman, jamoling bo'lsin evaz
Esim pas emas, faqat yolg'izlikdan ba'zi tomim ketar
Nari borsa holim battar

Iltimos qilaman qo'lim tinmay yozgan
Xatlarimga, to'xtamay chorlaganimga, ah
Or qilmay so'ragan so'rog'imga
Rasvoligimdan o'tib nazar sol
Nazar sol!

Yourself

The world changes, but in my heart, one state remains, a winter in my soul
Every task feels like a burden,
An endless path with no beginning or end, a realm of loss and ruin

Towards my desires, within the fabric of my life,
With pain and sorrow, I barely crawl towards your destinations
With a half-heart and a sighing soul, I strive for our union

In the depths of my eyes, a different planet, I've forgotten what time, what era
My actions are simple - a contender for becoming infamous

I know that there is no throne,
No happiness for me without you,
I wrote, I burned, I shattered into a hundred pieces
For all that I've searched for my whole life,
Whatever I saw, I considered it to be you

Every morning I stand ready to meet you, restless, awake, and harmless
Speak clearly, I await, I live not for myself, but for you

Every morning, from my eyes,
I count the falling drops, gathering my repentance in my palms
I flow like water, unrestrained, yearning for your scorching, golden gaze

A thousand possible events pass through my thoughts
The pen writes down my nightly lamentations, I am like a wandering dervish

My life is devoid of the world's desires and envy
It became a melancholic piece, somehow unheard by you
Everyone came to inquire about my ailing state,
Only you did not come to ask about me, why?

Time passes and goes
My eyes stay awake as my mornings fade
Today, only sadness resides in my words
While your kiss, in its presence, holds boundless joy

I strive,
My beloved, through countless obstacles,
I pushed the clouds with my hands, hoping to find you
I only found stars
Nothing more

Let the weight of the worlds hang on my neck
I agree, as long as your beauty is my reward
My mind is not weak, only from loneliness, a part of me fades
At worst, my state will worsen

I beg you, to my hand that tirelessly writes
To my letters, to my endless calls, ah
Do not ignore my pleas
Look beyond my shame and cast your gaze
Cast your gaze!