Текст и перевод песни たかやん - Good Evening

Good Evening

こんばんは、病んでる自分
今日も愛想だけを振り撒いて
笑顔になる度 心が泣いてるね
周り 全部くだらないね
叶うはずの無い恋愛してみたり
やる前から諦めてしまったり
自分の事を主人公と思い込んでみるも
端から見たらモブなんだ
育ちも普通 外見も才能も普通 湧き出てる苦痛
私は私だって言ってるのに 他人の声に躓いて転んで
少しでも個性が欲しいから 全く意味の無い自傷に走った
きっと同じだよ皆 だから焦らなくてもいいんだ

生きたって 意味無いね
無くなって 死ぬだけ
幸せも憎しみもセーブできないまま
最後は見知らぬ所へ行く
元カレも元カノも
家族も友達も嫌いな奴も
私が作ってる

笑えなくていいや
やりたいようにやればいいか
曖昧な黒が誰かに伝わればいいか

答えの無い答えを探し求めては
彷徨い殻に篭り 終わる
気付いて 私は私の味方だ
無理せず生きよう

Good Evening

Good evening, my broken self
Today, I've been spreading goodwill
With every smile, my heart breaks
My world is trivial
I've tried for an impossible love
Only to give up before I started
I think of myself as a main character
But others see me as just a background figure
I'm ordinary in every way: my upbringing, my looks, my talent; my life is a torment
I've told myself that I'm unique, but I've stumbled and fallen over the opinions of others
In a desperate bid to stand out, I've resorted to self-harm
But in the end, we're all the same; I don't need to rush

There's no point living
We'll all end up dead anyway
I can't control my happiness or my hate
In the end, I'll go to a place I don't know
My ex-boyfriend and ex-girlfriend will be there
As will my family, friends, and all those I hate
I created them all

I don't need to laugh
I'll just do whatever I want
If I can communicate this ambiguous darkness to someone, that's good enough

I search for the answer to a question that has no answer
I wander, trapped in my shell, and eventually I'll die
I've realized that I'm on my own side
I'll live as best as I can