Текст и перевод песни YAS - Bad Shodam

Bad Shodam

متاسفانه اینو یاد گرفتم
نخندم حتی بعد اینکه فاز گرفتم
با یه جوک، هه، تا بلند خندیدم
سریع محکم دستم رو گاز گرفتم
فهمیدم که خوب بودن من بازتاب نداره
وجدان تا آخر این داستان سرابه
فهمیدم کبابی آثار ثوابه
به محتاج فقط بگم که بازار خرابه
فهمیدم گناه می تونه یکی دو روزه عادی شه
حتی معنوی ترین ها تو یک لحظه مادی شه
یاد گرفتم که تخریب کنم
تا یه معروف دیدم بگم ولش کن شاخ میشه
یاد گرفتم که از همه دورم
آتو جمع کنم و تبدیل به اسلحه کنم
درد دلا رو بشنوم و وقت دعوا
همون درد دلاشون رو مسخره کنم
تو دل یک شهر پر از فاز های منفی
راه های مخفی پرخطر مار های افعی
ایستادی تو چهارراه تردید درگیری
که سکوت کنم و مظلوم تر شم
اجازه بدم همه از روم رد شن
یا بشم یه نامرد که با طبیعت
خودشو وفق داد با مرگ آدمیت
نگو مسئله رو واکنش باز
خوب مسلمه هر کنشی واکنش داشت
رود بودم سد شدم
روز بودم شب شدم
خوب بودم رد شدم
و بد شدم
نسل به نسل خون به خون
این بین ما می چرخه اینو خوب بدون
ما مثل دومینو به هم ضربه می زنیم
تو به من، من به اون، اون به اون
مگه خودم خیر دیدم
جواب خودم رو "خیر" میدم
اون که داشت می دید که دارم از بین میرم
پیک می زد و بعد مزه میل می کرد
هی ایزد خودت شاهدمی
حس می کنم دارم می رم تو یه چاه عمیق
قبول کن دفاع تو این یه مورد وارده
منم بد نبودم ولی خودت یادته
اون روزی رو که وایستاده بودم تو صف کوپن
دیدم یارو پشت بنز خف کپل
نشسته بود یه غول بی ریخت
که از سر تا پاش فقط داشت پول می ریخت
تو اون لحظه حس کردم که روز مردمنمه
دیدم اون که کنارشه دوست دخترمه
منو دید ولی من غریبه بودم
با همون مانتو که من خریده بودم
این همه تو عشق دادی اونم پاداشت
رفت با همونی که آویزون از باباشه
یه اعتصاب ناهار یه اعتراض مامان
یعنی بنز دم دره یه پاپیون هم بالاشه
لفظ میاد که روش حساب کنن
میگه می خوام به اموال پدر اضاف کنم
خیلی خود ساختست همون بنزه رو
از باباش خرید از دم قسط ماهی هزار تومن
من قرض کردم تا برات خرج کردم
من کف خیابون رو برات فرش کردم
من واسه داشتن تو نذر کردم
من تو رو یه فرشته فرض کردم
من با تنهایی تو با تن هایی
که تو رو ولت می کنن تو اوج تنهایی
تو این شهر پر نقاب
تو با اون بخواب من با قرص خواب
اگه بپرسم اون کیه که باهاشی بهم
میگی با لبخند بابا اون که داداشیمه
هه همون داداشیا دوشیدنت
لباسو کندن و تو رو پوشیدنت
گفتم تو خراب میشی اونو آباد می کنی
تو که عروس نمیشی اونو داماد می کنی
ای تو که حرفات تا این روز دروغه
یه تو زردی که حتی نیمروت دو روئه
گفتی بر می گرده بازم خامش می کنم
گفتی ببخشید حله خواهش می کنم
بعد ٦ سال در های دلت باز شدن؟
واسه خودم اومدی یا چون که یاس شدم؟
ببین یاس رو نگه دار فقط واسه رپ
اون به کنار در اصل من یاسرم
اون که واسه اسمش ریاضت کشیده
حق بده پشت میز ریاست بشینه
دارم عقده هامو در میارم از دلم
سرت رو درد میارم ؟ معذرت
تو شاد باش من که نبودم داش
تو این آهنگ تو سنگ صبورم باش
البته اینم یه حرف جالبه
که ما تموم حرف هامون حق به جانبه
ما از خوبی هامون دم زدیم وگرنه
منم به خیلی ها کم بدی نکردم
پول، دختر، موقعیتم
خدایی بد نبوده عمق نیتم
ولی بذار بد و بیراه ها رو حوالم کنن
بلکه خالی شن و منو حلالم کنن
منم یاد گرفتم اینا رو از اجتماعمون
و توجیه نداره کارم اشتباه بود
اگه درد دارم بوده حقم *** لقم
یه حساب کتابی بوده که مونده از قبل
بگذریم اینم با یه دید روتین
بشنو بگو بسه دیکته خوندی
تو هم اگه زندگی ما رو دیده بودی
تو صد تا تِرَک سر تا پای ما رو می نمودی
ولی واسه من رپ یعنی داستان
از اون که زخم خورد ولی باز وایستاد
آره رپ یعنی آرمان
از زیر زمین پرواز به آسمان

I've Become Bad

Unfortunately, I've learned this,
Not to laugh, even after I'm feeling good.
With a joke, heh, as soon as I laughed out loud,
I quickly bit my hand hard.
I realized my kindness has no reflection,
Conscience is a mirage until the end of this story.
I realized that generosity has its rewards,
To the needy, I just say the market is down.
I learned that sin can become normal in a day or two,
Even the most spiritual can become materialistic in an instant.
I learned to tear down,
To say "let him be, he'll become famous" when I see someone famous.
I learned that I am distant from everyone,
To collect compromising material and turn it into a weapon.
To listen to sorrows and when there's a fight,
To mock those same sorrows.
In the heart of a city full of negative vibes,
Hidden paths, dangerous vipers,
You stand at the crossroads of doubt and conflict,
Whether to be silent and become more oppressed,
To let everyone walk all over me,
Or to become a coward who has adapted to nature,
Who has come to terms with the death of humanity.
Don't say it's a matter of overreaction,
Well, it's obvious every action has a reaction.
I was a river, I became a dam,
I was day, I became night,
I was good, I was rejected,
And I became bad.
Generation to generation, blood to blood,
This cycle goes around between us, know this well.
We're like dominoes, knocking each other down,
You to me, me to him, him to her.
Did I ever see good myself?
I answer myself "no".
The one who was watching me fall apart,
Was taking shots and then savoring the taste.
Oh God, you are my witness,
I feel like I'm falling into a deep well.
Accept that defense is justified in this case,
I wasn't bad either, but you remember,
That day when I was standing in line for coupons,
I saw a guy behind a fancy Benz,
He was sitting there, an ugly giant,
Who was just throwing money around from head to toe.
At that moment, I felt like it was Opposite Day,
I saw that the one next to him was my girlfriend.
She saw me, but I was a stranger,
Wearing the same coat I had bought her.
All this love you gave, and this is your reward?
She went with the one who's leeching off his dad.
A hunger strike, a mother's protest,
Means a Benz at the door with a bow on top.
The word comes out for them to rely on,
He says, "I want to add to my father's wealth."
He's very self-made, that Benz of his,
He bought it from his dad, in installments of a thousand tomans a month.
I borrowed money to spend on you,
I paved the streets for you,
I made vows to have you,
I assumed you were an angel.
Me with loneliness, you with bodies,
That will leave you in the peak of loneliness.
In this city full of masks,
You sleep with him, I sleep with sleeping pills.
If I ask who you're with, you tell me,
With a smile, "Daddy, that's my brother."
Heh, those same brothers milked you,
Took off your clothes and wore you.
I said you'd ruin yourself and make him prosper,
You won't become a bride, you'll make him a groom.
Oh, you whose words have been lies to this day,
A yellow you, even your half-rupee is two-faced.
You said he'll come back, I'll silence him again,
You said, "Sorry, it's okay, please."
After 6 years, the doors of your heart have opened?
Did you come for me or because I became Yas?
Look, keep Yas just for rap,
That aside, I'm Yas at my core.
The one who endured hardship for his name,
Give him the right to sit at the head of the table.
I'm getting my frustrations out of my heart,
Am I giving you a headache? I apologize.
You be happy, I wasn't there, dude,
In this song, be my confidant.
Of course, this is also an interesting point,
That all our words are one-sided.
We talked about our goodness, otherwise,
I haven't been good to many either.
Money, girls, my position,
God knows my intentions weren't bad.
But let the insults surround me,
Maybe they'll empty and forgive me.
I learned these things from our society,
And there's no justification, my actions were wrong.
If I have pain, it was my right, damn my luck,
There was an account that remained from before.
Let's move on, this is also with a routine view,
Listen and say, "Enough, you've read the dictation."
If you had seen our lives too,
You would have exposed us from head to toe in a hundred tracks.
But for me, rap is a story,
Of one who was wounded but still stood up.
Yes, rap is an ideal,
From the underground, a flight to the sky.